The littlest things that make mi happy...

POLY LIFE

2011-11-03T19:24:00.003+08:00

well, its been a long time blog...but i realise now how important you are. you let me share things that i dont need to hide or cant say in public or even to my friends. So ya...i still love mansur.and it hurts really bad to see him with other girls even if friend only. im ready to let him go...but not ready to see him move on so quickly...but i dont want to talk bout him...

so now im STILL in school waiting for fitri..yeah, he still likes me. what can i do? i just treat him as a long time friend and we are just going on a friend's dinner/outing.you know...to catch up. im like so freaking tired now..and hungry..stay back after school, studied DE :D yeaah...so proud of myself.waiting for fitri...abit pissed coz he nv confirmed place to meet wif me and i waited and walked around everywhere.so boriiiiiing...

now im at south foodcourt, there's a new pizzeria here. the smell of the pizza..AWEEESOOOOMEEE.haha, can give you stomach-orgasm? haha. shall try it tml..if i can queue up to buy it. so fitri comiiing! must log out soon.dont want him 2 c my blog. shall talk to you again. CHOW!

loool...i thought he was coming...but i guess the performance still on.haha. im watching russell peters now! hoping to get some laughs so that i feel better after seeing mansur's picture with another girl...grrrr...so angry. so jealous...ya im admit it. im jealous... but its over now... haha k im laughing abit2 to russell oh n OH YA! TOK& LI !!!! this new malay drame/comedy. got hotstuff Ahmad Nabil!!! AHHHH! NOW HE REALLY TICKLES MY FUNNY BONE.haha.. i wish i could find someone like him...haiz...so ya im going to stay clear of guys until next year... ill find a steady boyfriend next year after my birthday.so for now, REJECT ALL GUYS, DONT BE SOFT AND DONT GIVE IN.hahaha...im a new me coz of mansur...and im liking it... :) k my batt is almost flat...i just hope it can last until fitri comes...byebye

Too Much To Think Bout THURSDAY!

2010-09-09T13:38:00.003+08:00

SOOO much to think bout...family lah friends lah studies lah love...cleaning the house, buying carpet, keeping a secret that u noe u wan 2 let out coz u feel uve juz been betrayed bt u noe u cnt...

haiz.sometimes i wish ppl wont make stupid mistakes.seriously...please think before u speak.jgn ikut perasaan atau nafsu atau ikut kata org aje.dah ckp gitu abeh skrg menyesal.ckp dari hati lagi yg org percaya tapi akhirnya dia menjadi kata pura-pura...i knew this was going to happen...this just goes to show that they're all the same...and in the end we are the ones who have to understand...why do they always make life complicated.why do they give us scars that we dont want and are ashamed of...mayb the world will be better without the lot of them...haiz.hopefully i can forget whatever happen...but tell you something...things will never be the same again.u noe why? coz you made it awkward for me.dont find me again please.i dont want to face you anymore.

as for you...its enough.just stop it okey.cant you see what im doin?cant you see hw im avoiding you.coz to me...there isnt a problem anymore..its just you and what you cant accept.just face reality.ade pergi ade balik.maybe for all the mistakes you made inilah balasannya...jgn salahkn aku.i was just being a good fren that really treated you as an equal.i just have to sae...it was fun for the long run...

now you...im really down to my wits end now.i really need you to be here for me...

(p.s this post is not bout friends or family)

When To Start Revision WEDNESDAY!!!

2010-09-08T10:07:00.005+08:00

so if you read the title above...thats the problem now .im sure everyone has the same dilemma .th question is"where to find the semangat?" when i look at my class,its like some of them dont even care or just dont want to put in effort.maybe they see themselves as hopeless.i hope they dont think thatway coz they're not hopeless,they'e just educationally challenged :)

ya,acually im kind of stress now.coz of studies especially,and some other small reasons.haven even started holiday hw xcept for math.is hard to follow he self-revision plan.soya,theres only one thing that can motivte me...remembering my gols and wat im aiming for!yeah,okey.looking at the big picture now.lets go!byebye

hi nisa

2010-09-06T21:42:00.001+08:00

soooo...today i ''took care" of whatever issue i had.i just dont want to think bout it so much.so ya,its fun to relive all the fun stupid things we did in the past about relationships and current situation.i found my sister is in the exact situation as me.nisa and me share the same thoughts.today was okey.went to school with nisa...somebody paitao us.wahh...haha.go chem then hav 2hr break then go for physics then went home.now im watching video with my mum and sis.kind of bored coz the tv doesnt have anything interesting on...so we watch k-pop songs.right now im typing on my sis NEW laptop.touchscreen...wahh...tomorrow got school again.but i think tomorrow will have more fun.well,theres nothing more to say.life is just complicated and we're all just sad people... UNITED WE STAND,DIVIDED WE SLEEP...yeah."woool"...

i just want to say...i understand what you're doing.i just hope you're not lying to me.and whether you understand me too...good luck in everything :)

Ashi-Teru

2010-09-04T17:10:00.003+08:00

i just want to say...im sorry i over-reacted.aku terasa sebab some of the things you said were connected to me in one way or another.i just hope you understand.im really sorry about bursting out like that.i hope you'll forgive me and forget that this ever happened.

i just want to remember yusof ishak as my most happiest,funniest,wierdest and randomest years ever with the friends that i have made along the way...

2010-08-31T21:31:00.002+08:00

its over.just to clear things out theres nothing going on.all of you juz step off.

oh yeah!

2010-08-20T20:04:00.002+08:00

okey.so whats up? haha im super happy today coz finally finish my course.feel like my heart jump n screamed YEAAAH! i also had fun with nisa.haha.do some housework around the place.haha.i liked today alot.its like a good day even though mdm hamidah scold us,eventhough teachers nag,eventhough we were all in a rush.but the feeling was so good that i cant explain.haha.got to spend time with jeremy n get to know more bout his personal life.the cute master also helped me with my contextual drawing.u know why i call him cute?? haha.coz he is!u should see his picture.haha.alif also helped me :) i reli appreciate it alot coz without them i wouldnt be able to finish up my contextual drawing on time.so ya,i dont know lah.like todays the best DNT lesson in all two years.for me lah.haha.

so now,im online.messaging sharmila, n izzul bout mt results.no,got nth lah.he just ask bout mt.im not shy or embarassed or afraid anymore. :) i know where my heart is now.i feel soo good right now.i feel like wan to blanje allll my frenz mkn kat restaurant.ALL.mcm kaye eh gitu.haha.but if ure reading this right,i forgot to tell you all that alif wan all malay students,4e3 4e4 especially to go buke together.confirm kecoh.haha.so yarh.date not fixed yet so just wait

dah lah.thats all i hav to say.muke dah panas.too excited aledi.wanna go enjoy tonights freedom n peace.bye!

2010-08-17T08:15:00.000+08:00

helo!

Puasa

2010-08-11T05:03:00.002+08:00

Today is the first day of puasa....yeah:D
okey,dah lame aku tak update...

so...on sunday:
planned to go see our school national day.i woke up late but still reach before the parade march off.wear red!semangat.haha.call nisa many times but she never pick up(tidur lah tu)haha.after the celebration,we went mac cc.plan to go vivo/bowling.went bowling.my friends ajak sharul.im shy you know...haiz.play bowling...had fun.suddenly my bowling skills up abit...abit only...haha.THEN after that went to Mufiz to eat.ate mushroom cheese prata n drink ice lemon tea.THEN...went to greatwall,deciding where to go.almost follow syim n nisa play at playground.haha.but change of plans. He bring me to waterfront.checklist! its damn fun.climb the spider web thingy .then go jetty talktalk.then go back the spider web thingy,chill out n talktalk ALOT.dig out all the past.haha.then go back jetty talktalk.on the way home in the bus also talktalk.i didnt talk much,im a good listener.haha.tired...but AWESOME FUN.must go again..with my friends lah.haha.Eve of National Day so fun.haha

on monday:
woke up at 11.mandi,siap smue.did abit of maths before i left.went to meet sis at raffles.chill at staircase,waiting for my sis fren.my sis is soo evil to her frenz.haha.then we went to padang.celebrate NATIONAL DAY!.got the fun tote<--how do you pronounce this word:) not to-TO or to-TEH,its TOTE,like hw u say TOAD.bt wif a t sound.TOAT.haha.okey...watch the parade all,i like the ultraman ppl,soo cute.haha.sesat arnd town sekejap.trying to find my mummy.patah-alik 3 kali tau.fed up aledi.finally meet at singapore flyer.eat at popeyes.reach home arnd 11.alik tidur.pnat...

on tuesday:
yesterday...all my troubles seem so faaar awaay,theres a shadow hanging over me oohh i believe that yesterday...SUDDENLY...and cut' enough singing.so yesterday woke up at 10plus.mandi,siap2.keluar,jumpe sharul ngan syazwan.pergi alik umah sharul sane sbab lupe bus card.then go causeway point eat at seoul garden.i lose the bet so i have to blanje.not gentlemen at all.haha.stay for 3 hrsplusminus?lame tu.haha.it was fun.uat ice kachang smue. haha.kenyang,dah kenyang,start ngantok...went to one of the bloks.the boys do their own "thing".phm2kn lah.then go back bb,lepak,study.i do maths.teach them maths.boleh smpai gaduh...then juz do maths all the way...smpai kul 10.hav to go home.he sent me busstop.talk bout matreps n stuff...then reach home,mandi,sleep...they bully me

today:
Selamat berpuasa!haha.woke up at 4.freshen up.sahur...finish sahur,message all my frenz.ade yg aru bngn kn.haha.then i hyper.then talk to hym on the phone.ltr im goin to study at RC.ALONE,its time to get serious.must go study...MATHS,SS,DNT do at home....i think after i put down the phone,i might go lie down.and think of what to do next...okeylah,i wan to go now.byebye

wow

2010-08-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

today is just another day.didnt study.didnt revise.went out,bought a new shirt.eat at lau pa sat :) reach home.sing song,listen song,blogging,chatting wif nisa,otp.ltr doin dnt.bye.

i love you

2010-08-06T21:49:00.003+08:00

firstly,my diets change.its like totally not stable.sometimes eat more,sometimes eat less,sometimes dont eat.wierd huh.i just hope i dont fall sick because of this.

secondly,prelims are reaching fast.my mood is also changing.getting more enthu into studying and revising and dnt.so i guess its a good thing

thirdly,although it may seem shaky,in my mind,i still think that we love each other.so i just hope things dont get too much of a hassle.look,its simple.if youve done wrong,you will get what you deserve.it happens so believe it.

lastly,basically my life has gone back to before except with a few minor changes.i cant wait to finish this long struggle.gonna burst out right after i finish my last sentence of the last written exam.and im gonna start doing everything on my list the next day.woohoo!'

thats all.i do have feelings...but i dont want to let it out.not here especially...juz let it slide and wing it

forgive me...

2010-08-05T17:43:00.002+08:00

WHAT'S THE POINT?

coward

2010-08-01T19:03:00.002+08:00

STEP-UP! and face me...or are you too scared?

ME and YOU?

2010-07-20T21:22:00.002+08:00

eh,please dont ever say anything about me and you that is not true.i dont like it when your friends spread rumours.and come to my class to disturb me.ure sec 4.ure 16 17?if you want to talk to me then just come and talk to me.i will give you my full attention.i have been giving you my attention everytime you pass by or say hi.if you are shy,i find it cute in a way.but i also like for you to be daring.im not a monster right?i wont bite you u noe.if you are afraid or embarass,why are you? i dont look down on you because of your stream and i dont judge you based on what i hear.i judge you from what i see.just start a conversation like the one u did last time,asking me about my next class.its a good start.and oh yeah,if you want my number,u should ask it yourself.i dont like you using ur "pawns"or friends to help.if you ask it yourself,i may or may not give it to you.but i will appreciate your courage to come up to me face-to-face.but i must warn you,there are consequences once you have started this "game".so you have to choose carefully and mend your ways...

so...

2010-07-18T10:18:00.002+08:00

So... lets talk about yesterday first. went to visit syahidah.she had to welcome us in crutches.poor thing wouldnt even sit down.want to "fly" here and there.haha.lol.the food was nice.i think we all went in for seconds.haha.then when nisa left we played rock band or guitar hero.haha.nisa had other things to do but she missed out on the fun.played until 6pm then we decided to go home....at 8 like that,i met up with ila again to play badminton.it was FUN!i was wondering when my stomach will go down...but like never eh...disappointed.eesh3.anyway,me and ila play and dance and laugh alot.like drunk retrenched workers.haha.ya,just letting out whatever energy inside us.it was goood exercise.haha.that is all i did ytd 17/07/10

So...today had surprise visit from my uncles and aunties.they came like 945am and i was still in bed.woke up and greeted them*note:i havent freshened up yet...shhh*haha.was very shy when my uncle ask me if i just wake up or what.(dont tell me he smelll something...) nahhh...cannot be.nobody else complaint.haha.now my mother looking for me.im hiding in the study room.haha.at 1pm,im going out to meet xiyu.go out do our homework.my mother found me already.gotta go now...buy!

some fren you've been

2010-07-16T14:15:00.002+08:00

you know people dont realise when they made a mistake.so if you approach them and you tell them will it solve everything?maybe...maybe not.it depends on the situation.but if people say other people one thing but dont even realise that they themselves are the ones.like if someone says this person is a sundal...but she herself is one.what right has she to say that person is a sundal? i mean if you want to bad mouth someone at least use your brain.you say it to someone thats close to her....do you actually want her to know about it?do you want the attention that you dont get or that you only get from one person?you jealous of her is it?tats why u bad-mouth.coz you want other ppl to see her flaws oso.but bad-mouthing isnt the way,especially if you yourself is alot or way worse than that person.i mean it was meant to be a secret between us.so why tell others or why bitch about it and then you only get yourself into trouble and you make your own situation worse.maybe you bitch about it because you want to get people to agree with you but you dont realise that not everybodys on your side.a fren trusts you and regrets what she did but this is what you do to her.do you think your fren wanted to do that.you dont understand the kind of situation the person is in.n its not only ur fren.everybodys done it before.so why bitch about it.if people really know the truth,im sure you'll be casted out.if people see it logically n put themselves in her shoes,theyll understand what she was doing and how she felt and then they will blame you,hate you for backstabbing ur own fren.even if you werent that close anymore.you still see her everyday in school right and you're in the same class.how stupid can you be..n the worst thing is you bitch about her when shes not around.why not just do it when shes around?better yet do it infront of her face.if theres something you dont like bout her,why dont you just tell her.instead of keeping it in you and use the most bitchy way to let it out.is it even something you shld make a big deal out of?no right.how are you going to explain yourself now.i did not call you a bitch.i just think what you're doing is wrong,but you're still hanging out wif us coz you need a fren 2 layan you n u need us.if someone doesnt approach you,i will....i will be honest,im not scared of you

2010-07-10T23:05:00.001+08:00

if the me has been hurting you or manipulating you..then u shldnt worry anymore.coz that girl is gone...n shes nv cuming back...

2010-07-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

i just want to say im sorry for everthing.i want to explain for my actions.if you want to judge me then just judge me.you all can say whatever you want about me....i know i did some things that im nt proud of.i know ive hurt my frenz,my closest frenz that i love and cherish.when i say this i mean it.this is the last time...for everything.im really truly n sincerely sorry...i was stupid.i did not think of any consequences.and if this is the last time then im glad i met you and had the chance to be your fren....once again im sorry...from the bottom of my heart.please forgive me

the truth

2010-07-04T23:44:00.002+08:00

you know sometimes human beings thrive on knowing the truth.uncovering mysterys,digging up remains to discover the past that we missed....but what if sometimes its the truth that you dont want to know.those truths that makes you confuse...that makes you stress...that makes you question everything about your life,your love,your family,your friends.those things that make you uncomfortable like you have a really bad stomache that you want to get rid off but it cant seem to blow away...thats how im feeling now...the disappointing truth and the painful stomache.sometimes im lost in this world...sometimes im feel like im doing my own things.and now im very down...is it one of those days again? i dont know.but bad days are usually triggered by something or someone.so who or what triggered mine?? and you know im the type that likes to please everyone if possible.so i can cramp 3 schedules in one day.so at the end of the day im super tired but at least everybody else is happy.okey,in a few seconds my craziness is going to start so i better chow first. bye!

whats wrong with me?

2010-07-03T14:23:00.002+08:00

hey people...i think theres something wrong wif me...i cant seem to finish that one glass of lemon tea in school.if you'd noticed....i always drink until 1/4 left bt cant seem to finish it.i feel like my stomach goin to explode.but the funny thing is...before...i could drink it down easily...now theres like no free entry for this drink to flow...hmm.maybe my diet has changed or what...maybe...hmm

oh yeah another thing...im still in my usual life...not much to talk about.if i didnt have family or friends or ncc or gossip or music or even guys...i think my life would be as dull as a colourless painting or as slow as a sloth.haha.im writing in standard english and using similies to improve my english in time for the o'level paper.hopefully it will help.haha.yeah..so my life would be boring.and im not living my life to the fullest like this! hurry finish o'level! theres a bunch of things i want to do to enjoy my one and only life! i should go revise now.want to pass and fly over the rainbow write...haha.so byebye

hey,what happen? why are you all having problems?haiz..i hope it clears up soon and the dust settles.i dont want to see any of you getting hurt.cheer up k:) if you need someone to cheer you up,im available. F.O.C you know.haha.ill entertain you with my crap.huahuahua.heres my number: 555 555 5555 byebye!hahaha

i feel...

2010-07-01T19:29:00.003+08:00

okey im posting after so long.

one)coz ive been bz wif school work n no time 2 blog
two)i post nw coz i realise i dun like wats on my recent post so i shld chnge it quickly.thank god tat guy left mi alne
three) i juz finish mi mt oral today!need 2 let out stress.haha

ive been quite tired n sleepy this few days.its quie boring too. coming home late after school.finishing up homeworks.preparing for oral.luckily nw oral is done,bt theres more to come.haha.muz try 2 stay positive n enthusiastic bout it. MY GOAL IS MY AIM.u get it?if u dun get it dun stress.its juz 2 aim high.haha.my friends cheered me up and calmed me down after oral.haha.it was fun actually to me.hmm...i dunnoe if i shld talk bout my feelings or wat.okey, im gonna talk bout my feelings.

1)i feel that if everybody in the world paired up,we would all have a partner
2)i feel that if i didnt hav my friends,i would be some emo loner
3)i feel that i love malay cause i want to learn more about it
4)i feel that sometimes maybe we should listen to others other than ourselves
5)i feel that loving is easy and hating is hard if uve loved
6)i feel that i want to have a slim figure
7)i feel that my calf muscle is big
8)i feel that i talk more crap than any other person in this world
9)i feel that i want to love but i just dont know hu
10) i feel that fear cannot stop those who are strong-willed and strong at heart

GREASE

2010-06-21T22:52:00.004+08:00

yeah!!!! im so happy! im gonna watch grease at sharmila hs tml! haha! i having GREASE FEVER tats y!haha. the song all so NICE AND FUUN! JOHN TRAVOLTA IS HOT! haha.back then nw still okeyokey.bt hes the type u noe badboy bt good guy inside.hot,ELECTRIFYING,sweet,romantic,cute! awww...y cnt we find guys like tat in this era?? haiz...okey haha.tats mi happy part...

NOW...im veri angry at guys hu use tagged 2 gt 2 noe girls juz so they cn b jerks,hence playing wif girls.tat disgusts me...ALOT.cn u believe...tis wan i tell frm own personal experience...tis guy...name:woodland guy(identity concealed) he sent me messages on tagged.heres hw the conversation went...

woodland guy:hey im****** n u?
me:im rosalind
woodland guy:u single?
me:yes...
woodland guy:nak be close? <----(im thinking WTH!)
me:huh?wat u mean?
woodland guy:macam mata air gitu...hehe <----(dier ni giler ke pe.m i tat cheap?!! WTH!)
me:mata air? bt y?
woodland guy: then we cn kiss...hehe <----(WTH!WTH!WTH! FREAK!PLAYER!A-HOLE!JERK!)
me: u dun even noe mi!

org ni tk TAU MALU!...argh.it is tis kind of ppl tat memalukan masyarakat kita n turn it into masya -KARAT. it is tis kind of ppl tat make girls hate guys! IDIOTS. oh n u noe wat it goes on...

okey.tats all...im forgot the other thing i wan 2 sae.juz tat JOHN TRAVOLTA IS HOTTTT!ELECTRIFYING! n oh yeah...where is my dream guy?cn he pls hurry up n save mi frm tis kind of ppl...wats the word...DESPERATE!buybuy nw...

something to tell you.haha

2010-06-18T21:55:00.004+08:00

Psst! i got something to share with you.listen closely.come closer.r u listening(reading)?haha.good. i have a feeling right that im reli goin 2 have a chinese boyfriend...mayb even a chinese husband. even my mum say so! n u noe...mother instincts are occasionally accurate.haha.i dunnoe.it might be true. i oso dreamt that i had a chinese boyfriend.bt he can speak malay! cooool...haha.hey if u think this is nonsense or ure like goin ?? on top ur head or WTH.haha.bt seriously when i think bout it...its like might be true.haha. n oso right i noticed tat i dun gt disturbed by mly guys.nt as much as mi frenz.mayb tats juz it.mi future is wif a chinese guy! ooohhh.haha.okey mayb u might say tat i nt as pretty as mi fren or tat i look chinese so mayb mly guys dunnoe if wan 2 kacau or nt.haha. i dunnoe! haha.tis is juz wat i feel.haha.it wld b nice 2 find a mix blood like me :D haha.then mi mum wld love hym coz she dun reli like typical mats n he cn communicate well wif both sides of mi family. cool! AWESOMEE! haha.bt i dunnoe.juz see wat the future holds for me...ohh..ohh...n another thing...ive had quite a number of failures being wif a mly guy. THIS IS ANOTHER SIGN! WOOHOO! IM GOIN CRAZY!HAHAHA...okey tats all.haha

NEXT-UP-
okey,today was actually suppose 2 go out.to sentosa with my frenz.bt mst of my frenz cldnt cum then i didnt noe whether 2 still go or nt.coz sakti n herwan say they will entertain me if i alone.its like want or dun wan?wan or dun wan? then this mrning i kinda woke up abit late.then i ask ila...ila oso sae myb nt.so in the end i bailed.i dunnoe.sumthing juz didnt feel right.it doesnt feel good to go without my frenz. awww...I LOVE YOU GUYS!GIRLS! WATEVER! aawww...im veri emotional nw.I MISS YOU PEOPLE! :'( the rest of the people in sentosa muz be enjoying n having a good time.camping overnight looking at the stars.wahhh...nvm.WE oso cn n we will soon enough.december...when o level finish n we all FREE! haha.oh yeeeaaahhh...hahaha

p.s:it pains each time i look at u or c ur face or ur name or anithing thats related 2 u.bt thinking of my frenz n family helps to ease the heaviness.tats y i love them! PEOPLE! I LUV YA!(quote N....)

RUBBISH belongs in the rubbish bin

2010-06-11T14:25:00.004+08:00

oh man.looks like every girl is feeling it.especially my friends.sometimes i have to admit that i do regret the decisions i make n take. i mean its stupid to be blind.ya we giv u trust we giv u support n we hope for the best.bt u juz crumple it all up n shove it up our '''... n that makes us cnstipated.shot through the heart.the beating that jerks n stops.the feeling of everything falling apart. GOOD PEOPLE GET HURT. the saying that theres always two sides to everything?? for guys theres JERKS n NICE GUYS...for girls theres BITCHES n GOOD GIRLS...juz cross multiply them n u get... A WHOLE LOT OF HURT. today i saw this one person,a guy, who broke his promise n lead me on.yes this guy also plays a small part to my previous post.ya,he says he will wait bt then goes on to another girl.wth. PLAYER MUCH? yeeah,i thought so too.my fren was right.u nv chnge.n practically juz nw if u had noticed i was trying 2 avoid u in ALL WAYS.nt looking at u n hiding bhind my fren so i wont hav 2 c ur face n let our eyes meet. bluek! n u cn still sae im sombong?? u mean u dont even noe wat u did wrong.tat is bad.im sorry bt if u wan 2 apologise n make good again,u cn juz take it n shove it into the rubbish bin.coz thats where it belongs...bt hey,life goes on right? n so does everybody else.so y shld i care. ya,thats right.im not gonna care bout guys.wat u wan 2 do i dun wan 2 noe.coz i dun wan 2 hurt myself by caring for you males anymore.only my frenz matter to me n those other guys that are beyond ur level of thinking.

what a player does...

2010-06-07T21:21:00.003+08:00

i hate guys who think theyre so GREAT. i hate guys who act like they know stuff.i hate guys who think that they know you but in fact dont even know whats your favourite colour.i hate guys who act tough n think theyre big.i hate guys who only go for looks and not the heart.i hate guys who flirt around ALOT.i hate guys who do things or say things without first thinking it in their heads. i hate guys who lie,cheat and steal ALOT.i hate guys who say one thing but do another.i hate guys who cant keep little promises.i hate guys who cant do the simplest task for you like take care of your heart.i hate guys who lead girls on.and abandon them right after they get what they want. i hate guys who are snobbish,snotty,vain and a total A-hole. all the things i list down,the things i hate bout guys... Dont even matter if whether youre in a gang,a matrep,smoke,drink,swear or an ahbeng.
IT JUST COMES DOWN TO WHAT YOU DO AND SAY.

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2010-06-02T21:20:00.001+08:00

MY RESULTS FOR CA2

2010-05-27T19:34:00.002+08:00

and here it is, MY RESULTS FOR CA2...after many months n tests of struggling,this is the verdict...

ENG -59.2(C5) *PASS
MALAY-56.0(C6) *PASS
MATHS-A7.4(D7) *FAIL
SCI-36.0(F9) *FAIL
COMB.HUM-59.6 (C5) *PASS
CORE GEOG-70.4(A2) *PASS

PASSES: 4
'FAILURES: 2

CONCLUSION: NOT VERY WELL DONE

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and so with this i end my blog as i have nothing more to say. JUST HAVE TO WORK HARDER, DUN GIV UP AND HOPEFULLY SUCCEED

YouTube - Stacie Orrico - Stuck (FULL VIDEO + LYRICS PROVIDED)

2010-05-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

"Every now and then when I'm all alone
I'd be wishing that you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do
I'm such a fool for you

I can't take it
What am I waiting for?
I'm still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you
It's true, I'm stuck on you"

this song is stuck in my head.somehow i can relate to it.but im not telling.haha.hmm..okey well ive been saying for a few times that friends are THE BEST!.now everyones finally seeing it my way.fun right?haha.i told you this years the best. we dont fight and im glad :) i keep smiling to myself coz im happy.haiz...its funny.when i think bout it...my secondary life has alot of ups and downs.this is the point where i can say that its stupid that we fought.haha.true that. tomorrow finally school after 4 days of "holiday".haha.im scared to find out the results.gulp' oh yeah.i cant believe im saying this but i had a dream that i was married.n yeah i saw my "husband".haha.funny.funny coz it looked alot like 2x5dol story.gt lame and cute stuff lah.haha.is it possible for someone to get drunk from drinking too much coffee? haha.drunk im not sure.but crazy...YES!haha.well okey thats all.if youre free for the next 5 mins.u are welcome to look at the video thats linked to this post.hope you enjoy it! PEACE :D

SINGLE BT I DUN MINGLE

2010-05-16T11:09:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey...to all the single ladies out there i hope youre enjoying it. i mean being single is nt al that bad. still gt friends mah :D yeahh...friends...okey well. i hope a certain sumone is getting better .heard that hes sick.take care of yourself,drink lots of water,DUN FORGET 2 TAKE MEDICINE...so ytd went 2 skool for mly remedial.as always...i was late.haha.bt earlier than ila n syim tis time.ahha.ila in the end nv cum oso...after that spent the day wif syim on the see-saw talking.haha.then went home.relax relax coz dunnoe wat 2 do aledi...lying on the couch listening 2 cds..power hits,ABBA...veri nice n soothing...almost fell aslp than my father woke me up 2 gt ready 2 fetch my mum.so i did...then fetch my mum then go far east plaza eat. got alot of matmat n minahs n ahbeng n ah lian..gt alot of people lah. yes,the matmat all handsome fyi.some taken some still available.up 2 u if u wan 2 go there or not. n i didnt look at any of them. im not interested...im waiting till prom then c how...drink coffee n went crazy.kookoo.bt at least i drank kopi. my parents go kopitiam drink lemon tea. i went 2 7-eleven n bought coffee...wierd right...i know. i think right i keep smiling 2 myself alot these days.soo sudden...until my parents suspect i hav a boyfriend.bt i dont. i smile bcoz i am happy :D i hope you are too. TODAY, going 2 cikgu house with ila n syim 2 giv our hw. going 2 get ready nw so until next time.PEACE :)

find the beast and you find the beauty...

2010-05-09T00:48:00.003+08:00

happy mothers day.well,just a few things on my mind.mostly bout love,life,your heart.so if u dun wan 2 hear it,just close tis window right now. mary horowitz said "if you love him,set him free...if you have to stalk him then he probably wasnt yours in the first place..." i realized...i did both...i let one free but suffocated another.i did the exact thing that i refrained from doing.so what makes me any different from any other person... im wierd? i already know that.being wierd is the only way for me to be unique i guess...i dont have any talents,im not a big beauty...im just normal.so normal that if i keep my mouth shut i would probably disappear from the world.left unnoticed,untouched.i was always the purest,innocent...but now...now its nothing.if i still say im that innocence,then im just lying to myself.and i know it...self-realisation i would say...its just the signs you see around that tell you what you have to do next.ill wait.10 hours from now...ill see.if there are no signs then i should probably stop what im doing.i dont mind.everybody has their rights. im doing this for the both of us.im just sorry.sorry if anything i did or said made you hate me...if we carry on with our lives,go with the flow,maybe good things will come to us.if we do good,the favour will be returned... i love my family,my friends,my teachers...the 3 things that shape the aspects of our lives.the 3 things that we should hold dearest.only they understand our weakness,our strengths,they support us from behind,they guide us,whether good or bad,it depends.i was thinking too...if i were to die any moment,i guess the first i would do is have a gathering,invite all my family,friends and teachers.make a speech n then leave this earth in peace for having said what i wanted to say.

LOVE- to me,love is that tingly and warm feeling inside.when youre in love,you feel like your heart is taken.it belongs to someone.thats why it feels like it broke or is bleeding or torn out coz the string that was attached to it is attached to the other person and that person ran a 100 miles away from you while you just stood there,hopeless.it gt pulled out.thats why it hurts.dont want your heart to get broken?dont hold on to someone whos running away.if theres still a chance then theres still hope right.those who are looking for love.good for you.as for me,i think just being the way i am is good...im good.as long as everybodys happy

your heart-your soul.find yourself.strength and weakness.your weakness can only make you stronger.what cant kill you will only make you stronger right.just be yourself.if you want confidence,look in the mirror and tell yourself youre strong.if you keep the inside pure no matter hw you look on the outside,people will eventually see the real you.your heart should be the way you want it to.should not let anyone twist or shape it.its meant to be yours and you own it.

i know im only 16 and i have alot to learn.this is just my perception of life as a 16 year old.life,love,yourself...its all connected....you decide.if you dont understand what im saying then its just not your time yet.if you do understand,then congratulations,uve been heartbroken,betrayed,selfish,cruel and hated yourself before.so what are you going to do now?

TO BE FREE OR NOT TO BE? that is the question...

2010-05-06T22:24:00.003+08:00

well,today im starting 2 feel the semangat-ness to study coz it finally dawned on me that olevels is onli 5 MONTHS AWAY.so yeah...its progressing slowly.i gotta say that goin down 2 study helps,especially if with helpful friends tat cn teach u...at home gt too many distractions...tv,computer,THE BED,food,shows,THE BED...yeah...i dont know wats wrong with mi 2dae..i hav a feeling...sum feeling in my heart.the feeling veri irritating...its nt a good feeling.it gets me soo down..luckily nisa tok 2 mi,haha.i feel better :) im feeling hot n thirsty...woooo!...so hot. okey.i dunnoe wat else 2 sae...hope tml is a better day...i cn only think of memories n yeah,im happy...thanks to you :)

i ate DENGDENG YTD! :D

2010-05-01T15:14:00.003+08:00

so talk bout yesterday first.skool was damn tired 4 mi.had a sleepless night.literally i didnt sleep.onli rested for an hour before getting up again.so went 2 skool moody n nonsensical i guess.always feel sleepy after recess.haiyo...was sleeping in both eng n maths.2 of the most important subjects.tat is bad...after skool went home straight n slept until 4 plus.then wake up n got ready 2 go 2 skool again for night study.almost late.went wif nisa.finish arnd 9...gt word frm ila tat wjla @ mac.mi n nisa wanted 2 go step wan 2 buy food or go toilet.reach the 2nd level of mac,we turned back.scared 2 go in any deeper...0h yeah! i ate dengdeng ytd! hahaha.veri nice :D mi granpa went 2 geylang n bought for mi. grandpa! i luv ya!.haha.lame.trying 2 copy wat other ppl sae.haha.so yeah,i sick.sick y? i dont know.fever sick?yes.lovesick?mayb... sick in the head?haha.always.duhh,in the group called O.S.O.orang sakit otak.obviously there muz b sumthing wrong wif mi..yeah,im having a headache.mi fever died down aledi...nv went 2 doctor.nv ate meds.wats the point...nw mi msn jam.n im bored.2dae...muz study.muz revise.i hav 2 chnge mi lifestyle frm 2dae onwards...so buybuy nw...

I WANNA EAT DENG DENG!

2010-04-28T20:39:00.002+08:00

well,if u look at the date today, its 28 april...tomorrows my birthday.okey.i got some random thoughts in my head n i thought this might b interesting 2 share. u noe everytime its my bdae..ill b in a relationship.bt everytime im in a relationship,i wnt gt any present frm my bf.its a little saddening.but theres always my frenz 2 cheer mi up.they do the things for u n wif u tat u wld nv do or share wif ur boyfren.interesting eh.aniwae,back 2 topic...ya,i dun get anithing.a wish? a handshake? hey,if thats they best they cn giv mi,then ill accept it. i dun mind getting nothing.i wld appreciate a wish.bt im used 2 it.i juz dun mind gettin nothing on mi bdae.i nv ask much from my parents.dun c the need too.unless there sumthing i reli wan or nid.bt sumhow,tis years different.gonna b different.i cn tell. the fact bcuz 1) im single 2) i dun hav a bf 3) its my last bdae hear in YI.haha...the first 2 facts r sumwhat the same...im juz implying tat mayb tis year i wnt gt mi hopes dampened by waiting for sumone hu shows up empty-handed n doesnt even send u home. birthdays r important.if u dun appreciate it,u dun appreciate ur frenz or family or ani other person in the world.i wished yuexi happy birthday juz nw.its been a long time since i last spoke 2 her...had a good one year friendship wif her,eventhough had some mishaps.i mean hey,which frenz wldnt fight... :) im worried im scared im excited.i rmbr my sec 2 bdae.mi frenz 'bashed' mi wif.. i cnt rmbr flour or powder? hmm.i juz noe its white...haha.tat was fun.haha.bt tis year.mayb we're all too mature 4 tat kind of stuff anymore.haha.i cant wait. i love tis year.it seems like the happiest n most enjoyful with lots of laughs n gags.yeeeaaahh.THIS IS GONNA BE AWESOME! :D

the untold story behind my life

2010-04-25T00:38:00.001+08:00

confessions of a mental person

2010-04-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

ive got a confession!its driving mi crazy!im gonna let it out nW! I HAVE NAUGHTY EYES!!!i cnt stand them.feel like sratching them out.ahhhhhhh! u noe y i sae tis?? i cnt help bt 2 keep looking for ppl.especially in skool.its irritates mi.i irritate myself!ahhhhh!ppl...many ppl.nt onli one.i cnt stand it.wats wrong wif mi??y muz we b born like tis...i juz make myself tired.stupid mi.starting frm tml muz avoid my glances 2 the front onli.AVOID ALL DISTRACTIONS.AVOID ALL OF IT!AHHHHHHHHHHH--------------------

today

2010-04-07T21:10:00.000+08:00

today just another school day...mrs goh wasnt in core so we got some free time after finishing our work. i went out n saw viknesh all doin their work.so i juz sit beside vik.hey,i nt mengatal okey...my classmate seyy.dun make it difficult for girls n guys to mix around in class...no harm right....yes i know u all know something bout me n hym right...but nice to talk 2 hym...he layan me.im happy.haha.ask hym bout the psyh-stalker...fun.haha.then after skool didnt go for chem.went for malay bengkel.loved the food.after tat went home.tk jadi gi beach coz found out dah tutup.thank u ila for helping me.went home then rush then had a tiff wif my father then bad mood then played game...nw im bored n tired n havent do my homework yet.buybuy

Bliss

2010-04-04T13:53:00.002+08:00

today im juz gonna concentrate on my homework.muz follow timetable.lets put all the distractions in our lifes aside...only keep whats important to you and go with the flow...

woke up at 1130,watch tv,bathe,eat,nw on the comp...n sooooo loooong...

B-O-R-E-D

2010-04-03T11:20:00.003+08:00

oh man..i had mother tongue remedial n i came after cikgu.i thought i was late..if i was late today,like every mt remedial late aje...boring aje...after eat at cnteen awhile then went home.sorri cnnt teman nisa go wm n luncheon.you message 5 minutes too late...another time mayb...on the comp..what am i going to do today? hmm...so bored.i guess can finish up all the homework n mayb take a nap.ytd did mly until 2 n woke up at 7 today.haha.okey i guess i shld go nw.nth much 2 sae coz nothing much to do...i want to go blajar bawa blok mayb...seorang...emo ah.haha...haiz so bored...hopefully homework would giv some joy,entertainment and pleasure...buy

YESAH

2010-04-02T20:52:00.004+08:00

well,2dae was a long but short day if you get the drift..i dont think you do....aniways,woke up @ 11 30...use comp.bath...get ready 2 NISA'S PARTY. only me n syim.the rest all gt something on...ate @ mac while waiting for syimah.then buy cheesecake for nisa while syimah bought a purple rose.haha "its love at first sight..." haha.then went 2 nisa hs.rain then stop.luckily.reach nisa hs nisa wasnt at home.so me n syim waited then we hid when nisa came home bt nisa cld see us so no use oso haha.all the way eating n playing cards n lying in nisa bed n in n out n in n out n talking 2 mk..the cake-cutting.very funny.when we sang bdae song for her different2 names came out..nisa lah.khairunnisa lah.shasha lah.haha.at last the fun began...KARA-OKEY!...HAHAHA...sing many2 songs until forgot tat nid 2 go home..good thiNG syim remind.very fun.haha.i wanna go K-BOx!haha...the birthday cake was nice...chocolateee...nisa dun forget eat ur cheesecake!LTR TURN BAD.haha..manage 2 take a pic before syimah ate it.haha...too bad couldnt take video of the birthday girl singing.haha...

"Happy 16th Birthday To Khairunnifa Nazurah"

khairunnifa???

haha.gt error in the cake.haha.HAPPY BIRTHDAY NISA!...again

hope u enjoyed today.i noe i did :)

Parachute

2010-03-29T21:51:00.003+08:00

i dont tell anyone about the way you hold my hand

i dont tell anyone about the things that we have planned

i wont tell anybody

wont tell anybody

they want to push me down

they want to see you fall (down)

wont tell anybody how you turn my world around

i wont tell anyone how your voice is my favourite song

i wont tell anybody

wont tell anybody

they want to see us fall

i dont need a parachute

Baby if i got you

i dont need a parachute

you're gonna catch me

you're gonna catch if i fall

down down down

i dont need a parachute

Baby if i got you

i dont need a parachute

you're gonna catch me

you're gonna catch if i fall

down down down

dont believe the things you tell yourself so late at night and

you are your own worst enemy

you'll never win the fight

just hold on to me

i'll hold on to you

it's you and me up against the world

its you and me...(love)

i dont need a parachute

Baby if i got you

i dont need a parachute

you're gonna catch me

you're gonna catch if i fall

down down down x2

i wont fall out of love

i wont fall out of

i wont fall out of love

i wont fall out of

i wont fall out of love

i wont fall out of

i wont fall out of love

i'll fall into you x2

i dont need a parachute

Baby if i got you

i dont need a parachute

you're gonna catch me

you're gonna catch if i fall

down down down x2

Wont tell anybody...

2010-03-28T21:46:00.005+08:00

i dont need a parachute...baby if i got you... it seems so true..all we need is just someone.someone to be there to catch us...im really hoping you would be there...thats whats going through our mind right now...be it friends,family or lovers...right now im really confused...i know that theres no task we cant overcome.but its hard to make decisions sometimes...i dont know whether to wait or move on...i think what you said that time was just because i irritated you...im sorry i was irritating...but i just needed to know.to tell you the truth...i get jealous if i see you with other people.i cant stand not talking to you...i cant stand not being there for you.i always wanted to be there for you...bt now we're just friends n i can only do as much for you as a friend...bt now i know my answer to my question.but i already made a mistake...stupid me.i blame myself if i hurt anyone...i wish i could rewind time..i know my answer...i just wanna hear yours...tell me..just say it from your heart...i cant stand it anymore.i pretend each day..hoping that i could trick myself into moving on...but it doesnt work...when i thought i had moved on..it just comes back..i dun wanna be there the girl hu cries wolf...so ill just shut up until something happens.mayb now is juz too early...i dunnoe...ill just have to wait

another Day,another Story...

2010-03-20T23:22:00.003+08:00

so ive uploaded pics of moon ki's last day in singapore...dun worry theres plenty of his face.so hu ever misses hym juz go check it out.mind u mi camera quality nt tat good so dun blame mi...aniwae, i juz wanna sae assumptions juz lead 2 misunderstandings.wei ppl.dun always assume.ppl hav good intentios too(refer to previous post) i mean y shld we bother if ppl spam right? wat they sae may hurt u,hurt ur pride or ur feelings...bt its a free world...free publishing rmbr...its onli fair if wat u write upsets them n so they do the same 2 u.tat kind u juz hav 2 accept.bt for ppl hu juz cum n "disturb"ur blog...juz report it...ur troubles will b over...or u cn complain 2 PM Lee Hsien Loong...go check out the parliament website...juz google.yes...their very modernised...onward Singapore!yeah...goin out of topic here...aniwae...i hav a confession.im in love...its a passion so strong i cnt cntrl.ive fallen in love over n over again...i hunger.i crave.when my lips meet it juz taste so sour yet so sweet.so soft...i cn taste it in my mouth...delectible...my passion is filled...bt yet i still yearn.i juz hav 2 hav it over n over again...yes...the all-SCRUMPTIOUS CHEEEESSEEEECAKE! hahahahaha...all muz b lolzzzz aledi.haha.some of u think dirty right?haha.i noe.dun nid lie.i noe my frenz well.haha...yup2.cheesecakes...my new love...u gotta love it too!

another Day,another Story...

2010-03-20T11:55:00.009+08:00

i give up.when i wan 2 help.ppl tink i act innocent.wats wrong wif the world.isnt there enough fighting aledi.the war in Kuwiat.the war i Iraq.y muz we tink tat everyones intentions is either bad or nt sincere...yes,we're all liars...i nv said we werent.we all lied bout sumthing.whether it is to cover up or help sumbody...internet.is it good or bad?does it help or make it worse? we shldnt blamely it solely on the internet.its the users who abuse it n make it a sinner...wif the pornography and violence videos.kids gt easy acces on9...n their first desire is 2 try wat they seen.YUCKS!...i dun wan 2 imagine.nw im starting 2 think back bout wat syim said...fb or blog better..mayb she was right.fb is better.n i realise tat nw.so im sorri 2 nisa 4 making u write on ur blog.im sorry 2 those who gt offended bout wat was written...i sae tis wif mi logical n emotional thinking.
about our friendship...i dunnoe.i nw noe the reason y...bt y did u hav 2 keep it in...we did hav good memories 2gether right?dun forget tat.its the bad stuff in the way.take out all tat negativity...no,i cnt force y if u cnt or dun wan...its juz tat it doesnt feel right.so yeah,so everybody juz cncentrate on studies.o level cuming.we'll c wat happens next...
wat r u still doin here??hit the books aledi.chow

the world...the word

2010-03-11T23:40:00.002+08:00

okey..hello...hw r u? must be boring to c the same post everyday.heres an update. school as pernormal...abit boring.some embarrasing moments...most of the students n teachers went for camp.felt so empty n peaceful...went home after max out n hanging out at the yohub..FUUUNNN...on the way home right...the bus i boarded was packed...i stood at the corner with my head facing out the window...could not be bothered to see the faces of the people in the bus. most were foreign workers.there was an old lady standing behind me.there was no seat available.then, at one stop, all the foreign workers alighted,leaving the bus spacious and empty.the passengers rushed to get a seat but nobody took notice of the old woman.right in front of her were 2 ladies seated down...one was quite young and the other arnd my mothers age...the young one was eating..i scanned n eyed them down...it was a clue to give up tay seat to the elderly lady.they ignored it..as lesser ppl alighted the bus it bcame more spacious.i quickly moved aside n let the old woman take the corner.it was easier for her 2 keep a balance.she whispered something to me in chines.i could not understand plus i was listening 2 my music.

what i hate the most...inconsiderate singaporeans...n inconsiderate foreigners...dun giv up their seat.dun put back their place at the stall...tis is nt ur fathers country okey.dun b selfish or greedy...nxt time u c an elderly person standing...GIVE UP YOUR SEAT. n ull b blessed.

i dont know why the government stress on the importance of sharing but never emphasis enough on it. there shld b a fine or something.$500 if u dun giv up ur seat...u know why government officials never emphasis on it..its because they never take public transport...they hav their own private cars with government license plate numbers...yada yada yada...even if they did take mrt or bus...ppl wld giv up their seat for them...what a bunch of suckers...of course singaporeans respect high ppl.they noe tat it will benefit them greatly n if nt, they will get saman...mayb shld go 2 the website n complain 2 PM Lee Hsien Leong...hmm...

anothe issue is I MISS MY PARENTS. 2 days without parental guidance..hws it been for me? its juz like every other nrmal day except nobody 2 send me n fetch me frm skool...cn u believe it..in singapore nw its aledi 12 am...at india its onli 930 or so...woooww...okey lah...nth else to say.must b independent while my parents are away...ehhhh! rhyme! haha :D okey then buybuy...

whats there to ask...

2010-02-27T22:13:00.003+08:00

well...2dae went 2 school.malay remedial.then went 2 hq.support freestylers. gt 2 things for them...1 thing...2 thing...my friends...GOOD JOB AND WELL DONE! :D then went westmall.had lunch with maam at burger king.then walk2 arnd westmall.nisa go home early coz she gt something important then soon after we all went home.reach home.bathe.shiok.watch tv.do dnt...

2 things happened today...

i talked to syahidah.its been awhile since each of us has had some time to talk to another.right nw...everything is always shared between a group...so its nice to talk 1-on-1...talk bout life,likes,problems,prom...halloween theme for prom.hah.wear bedsheet poke 2 holes cn aledi.hahaha...lol... gt feel the bond or not? so romantic.mushy.dating like tat...haha.

another thing is while i was doing dnt then gt tis unknown number kol.sumbodys sis. i dunnoe where,when,why tat person is.surprised tat the girl diverted 2 mi phone.n tis is tat persons sis told me tat her kol diverted 2 her phone.i remembered tat my fren put my number divert coz tat time her phone low batt then she scared her mum kolled.she forgot 2 chnge back.i have no choice bt 2 ans the sis kol...the last thing i said 2 the sis is i would kol mi fren.n she said.u better kol her if nt both ********** get it...i kolled.number busy...message.no reply...angry.thought she used my name as scapegoat...then the mother kol.thought i was my fren.i told her i went westmall wif nisa juz nw.its true. i tink she shld b otw home nw...okeyokey.thx.buy. then the sis message.asked mi a question...i said im nt sure...she shld b otw home nw...fustrated coz they keep kolling.offed my phone.listened 2 music n cncentrate on dnt 2 drain out emotions n bad thoughts.u noe wat im tokking bout.finally finished my dnt.nw on break.check phone...messages,missed kol...found out tat my fren told another fren bout tis.then tat fren message me.want 2 help solve the problem..replied the other fren...evertyhing okey.forgive her.misunderstanding.........................................................ive gt no feelings or emotions nw...drained out...no nothing 2 do nothing................................................................................................................................................. nid a break.nid u 2 leave my life alne.nid 2 forget.nid 2 remember.nid 2 learn.nid 2 achieve.nid 2 earn.nid 2 b left alone.nid u 2 leave my work alne.nid 2 b surrounded.nid 2 rest.nid somethings...bt juz dun want it all...

the circle of life is what makes everything turn....im in no mood to entertain anything but myself right now...just let me be for tonight.dont disturb.dont get in my head.im tired of having 2 decide n choose...i need that "replenishment"

dun get it wrong.its nt bcoz of that incident...theres a million other things...everybody has their bad moods n bad days...tis is mine tonight...

2nd DAY!

2010-02-15T22:12:00.003+08:00

2nd day of CNY! haha...woke up in the morning...washed my school shoes.they are now clean :D well...cleaner than before...bathe.gt ready...wore my cheong sam...tokk dee's advice 2 wear short tights blow...freedom! haha. felt goooood...my father drove us to uncle ronnies place...ate coz was hungry...uncle ronnie said everything halal...im starting 2 doubt tat...i didnt noe!i didnt noe!haha...then uncle ronnie tell grandfather story...then we went 2 auntie mollys place...both houses mkn2...grow fat.i fell asleep at auntie mollys hs.eat sleep eat sleep.hw cn i nt b fat?? then after tat went home...i was hungry...eat snack2...went toilet...did hw.watch sis play L4D2...ate dinner.watch shanghai knights...while watching i was peeling ONIONS.onions! peel onions 4 the food 4 my frenz tml...2 hrs of peeling u noe...until the show goin 2 end already.i make sure u all eat tml.MUAHAHAHA! nw on the comp n on the phone wif nisa.gossip2...i gtg nw...have 2 help cook tml... :D cnt wait 4 all of u 2 cum! YIPPEE! MISS U ALL! :D

2010-02-14T22:10:00.002+08:00

finally one by one they came...haha.had fun ging xi gong xi ni here n there...at arnd 2 plus...took a nap.....2hrs nap..then when i woke up suddenly...another relative came...nice timing...entertain them...i helped to prepare the food n stuff...helped 2 cook...was admitted to kitchen duty...clean plates n stuff then gt promoted 2 bartender...wash glass...make drinks...fun..especially wif my sis...then after tat all went...we all rested..i did my maths AQAD while watching my sis play L4D2. then auntie betsy came...they came at 745 n stayed until 930.tats long...watched shanghai knights while they tell grandmother stories...mindy nw so pretty....haha.i wan 2 c hw her bf look like.haha.sumtimes fat sumtimes skinny one.hahaha...lol...then ate dinner..on the comp...relaxing abit...tats all for 2dae :)

CNY CNY CNY!

2010-02-14T10:14:00.003+08:00

first of all....HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! GONG XI FA CAI! ANG POW NA LAI!.haha...woke up in the morning my mother start nagging already.do this lah do that go clear your shoes lah.what time already still havent wake up...its only 9 OCLOCK!i still wake up earlier then my sis :p...I just wake up and started clearing my unwanted shoes...then i vacuumed the floor.VRIUUUUMMMM VRIUUUMMMM....the sound of the vacuum in the hs. next i went 2 bathe coz itchy2 already...woke up my sis...help 2 set our sofa blanket...fabric from thailand NICE :) if u cum my hs u cn c...(actually its tablecloth.shhh..dun tell my father i told u) haha :) now on the comp relaxing a little...still havet eat.hunggryyyyy :( when are my relatives gonna come?? uncle ronnie! auntie molly!uncle vincent! uncle david! where r u??

:P

2010-02-13T22:03:00.003+08:00

eve of chinese new year!!! wahh...didnt do my hw...juz tidy up my closet.theres nw a mountain of clothes on the box...haha.helped in the kitchen.rested awhile...someone called me juz 2 wish me. thanks :) had our new years eve dinner. STEAMBOAT! :D ate alot...wahh...haha.after went for a stroll 2 IMM. SAW MDM HAMIDAH & FAMILY. haha.she said n i quote "all the shops close..." only giant n giordano n cotton on still making business.haha.went marketing...went shopping...bought 2 new shirts n 5 pairs of SOCKS! 5 FOR $20! SO CHEAP!1 FOR $4 ONLY.HAHAHA...went home...on the comp...tomorrow is chinese new year n oso VALENTINES!HAHA...remember muslims cnnt celebrate it...no hanky panky business ah.haha.juz kidding....dun mind me... okey tats all...im hungry nw...haha...the food went down aledi.so fast...i wonder wats there 2 eat...hmm...

2010-02-13T11:31:00.002+08:00

wow.okey...syahidah went 2 bali.ila went johor.yani oso went to johor.nisa's gt chalet...so left mi n syim n wani.bt wani bz taking care of her family...im bz doin last min clean-ups...i wonder wat syim is doin....hmm.well,aniwae...lets see..ive got nothing...wat happen ytd is juz gonna b a past of my memory...so lets move on. today...do hw.clean room.seems little but theres alot 2 do...haiz okey.i go now...

2010-02-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

i dont know whats wrong with me...i juz started crying...listening to this song...reading my friends blog. its unfair to me.its never fair to me...i give my best my all...to help,to love,to cherish...bt i always feel the hurt.y cant for once i can enjoy the day without any hatred,without any hurt,without any suspicion,any envy,any anger...i get no support...nothing.but that was the part that i needed you all the most...you just did the exact opposite of what i expected.none of you spared a thought of what i was feeling at that time.too busy condemning on that one person.it made you happy...but it didnt for me...none of u stood up 4 me.i couldnt even stand up 4 miself...ya i love that guy so much.i believe wat he sae.coz i spend time with hym.i noe the side of hym tat u all nv c.bt u sae im blinded by it.so loving someone makes mi blind.wat if i hate someone?wat does tat make me??im crying my eyes out.bt only now.asl aku tk ngangis bile dier break ngan aku? asl aku tk ngangis tiap kali aku nmpk dier? aku cume senyum.aku ketawa.i told u all i was okey.i dun feel the pain...mayb it was all an act?mayb i myself didnt noe tat i was my own fool.well nw i feel it.i feel everything.i regret everything.i hate everything.i juz wan a normal life.i wan 2 restart my life...so i guess i cry bcoz i still love him....im juz a fool... im juz wan 2 b empty if it makes me happy... Biar membawa resmi ayam betina...n tats wat ill do...

crazy...

2010-02-08T21:12:00.003+08:00

Come Here baby You know you drive me up a wall the way you make good on all the nasty tricks you pull
Seems like we're makin' up more than we're makin' love
And it always seems you got somn' on your mind other than me
Girl, you got to change your crazy ways You hear me

Say you're leavin' on a seven thirty train and that you're headin' out to Hollywood
Girl you been givin' me that line so many times it kinda gets like feelin' bad looks good
That kinda lovin'
Turns a man to a slave
That kinda lovin' Sends a man right to his grave...

Chorus: I go crazy, crazy, baby, I go crazy
You turn it on
Then you're gone
Yeah you drive me Crazy, crazy, crazy, for you baby
What can I do, honey I feel like the color blue...

You're packin' up your stuff and talkin' like it's tough and tryin' to tell me that it's time to go
But I know you ain't wearin' nothin' underneath that overcoat
And it's all a show

That kind of lovin'
Makes me wanna pull Down the shade, yeah
That kind of lovin'
Yeah now I'm never, never, never, never gonna be the same

Chorus I'm losin' my mind, girl
Cause I'm goin' crazy
I need your love, honey
I need your love
Crazy, crazy, crazy, I go crazy
You turn it on
Then you're gone
Yeah you drive me
Crazy, crazy, crazy, for you baby
I'm losin' my mind, girl �

Cause I'm goin' crazy Crazy, crazy, crazy for you baby
You turn it on, then your gone
Yeah you drive me

STAND BY ME

2010-01-11T20:01:00.005+08:00

theres something thats been bothering me.i know i should ignore it coz if you love someone and have known them for very long,you should trust and believe in them.we should not condemn in any way whatsoever coz that person might be hurt.however...normally when we wanna talk about someone,we forget about the other persons feelings.since i let it pass...i just want to ignore it and im really hoping that everybody else would too. i might not tell you all everything coz mostly im lazy or i forget or just dont wan to talk about anithing...but sometimes you just got to give people a chance,coz thats wat they need the most.if you look down on them then they will think themselves as useless or ignored or a nobody...they just need you to be there for them,encourage them and stuff like that.they need someone to believe in them so they could believe in themselves. am i right? we're all the same.so who are we to judge and criticise.critisizing is one thing but if you go over the edge on this critisizing issue then you dont feel guilty is it. i bet youre just thinking sooo lucky thats not me.just wait until that happens to you then you'll find out.

im so sorry to ila and everybody else.i feel like im always called to do stuff for pds. its not that i want to but sir keep calling me.i try to ignore him sometimes ler.but ila and syim seems okey with it.i dunnoe bout the rest mayb/mayb not happy.tats wat im afraid of.if you all think im being more stuck up or something,please tell me.because we ourselves wnt realize our mistakes unless someone tells us.so yeah,im open so dont worry.i wnt get angry or anithing.but just dont talk behind ppl backs or anithing.if u have aledi done this then just tell me.im not looking to fight here,ive enough of problems and all the lame shitness of fighting.dont you think its stupid? not worth it.waste of time.boredom...so just tell me face 2 face.im hoping someone would point it out. oh yeah,sir...you do know that you have your OICs your trainers and logistics team too. everyone can help.dont always ask for one person.thank you. well thats all coz i got nth to say aledi.feel so tired...if u c mi face right nw..motionless. okey lah. byebye

NCC

2010-01-06T22:05:00.002+08:00

had school.lesson was alright. had compo test and karangan test.learning new topics.enjoying the start of sec 4 life. pds was fun.i think we improve alot.im really proud of everyone. Everyone is credited. if nt for the alumnis n sir,we would know how to begin. if not for the seniors, trainings would not have been successful.if not for the cadest,the performance would not be ready. so everyone is to thank.everyone has done something and contributed in one way or another. even the teachers think so....nice to get praises and good comments after all the hard work.only one more week left till the performance.busy with skool,ncc,personal life...still sick.medicine is working but slowly...gonna take my medicine now.buybuy

1ST DAY OF SCHOOL 2010

2010-01-04T21:28:00.003+08:00

so today was first day of school. had a fun but tiring sec 1 orientation. the new sec 1s are quite alright.not as blurr as last years batch.haha.met new people,made new friends....it was FUN! :D haha. got to know alot of yusoffians adiks or cousin or close relative. haiyo i tell.. yusof ishak is really ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY.hahaha. funnny...distributed my souvenir for my friends...bag became lighter. alif give me senior amiras souvenir :D after skool ate lunch together. WANIIIIII!!!! kurus seyy. jealous.haha.then went home...walked with nisa. reached home arnd 6. bathe,eat...have been using comp until nw... :D doin thingsss... my cousin's wedding is same day as pds training. wat to do...wat to do...gonna start working hard this year...starting...thursday? haha.i hope so.had leg cramp n stomach pain.having flu n sore throat. i dun wanna get sick! but if i do...then good oso. my grandma gave me a long sleeve t-shirt. its GREEN. haha.although the colour does not appeal to me anymore but it still excites me. so i guess i like both PURPLE & GREEN :D haha.the shirt is nice,just scared cannot fit.haha. thank YOU mama!:Dcurrently otp with nisa.chatting with maam and khidir. will be busy tomorrow after school so dont bother askin me to go home early.i wont be able to do it.

tuesday*5 jan* - SHAYIDAH BANU BIRTHDAY! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! NCC STUFF after skool
wednesday*6 jan* -PDS training
thursday*7 jan* - consultation(MATHS), ngaji
friday*8 jan* - NCC training
saturday*9 jan* - PDS training + COUSIN WEDDING !!!!

BACK

2010-01-02T21:50:00.002+08:00

im back frm singapore.miss u all soooo much.had fun shopping n bonding at there.lazy to talk bout details.pictures paints a thousand words so mayb ill upload them to fb or sumthing...

tomorrow going out...mayb ill deliver the souvenirs to ur doorsteps.haha.seems like a good plan to spend tomorrows day. ooohhh...cicak...it juz slithered past me.haha. PURPLE is now my colour.dont know why the sudden change.me n nisa hav great minds so we tink alike.haha :D aniwaes...im quite...quite...i sae quite ah.means like 40% tired.60% i want to do more like talk on the phone,dance arnd,chat with ppl,prank call...haha..im tempted to.yeahhh somebody chat with me.miss tis person veri veri much :D

tats all for now

one more night

2009-12-27T17:38:00.004+08:00

well,its onli a few hours away until the next day...the day i leave singapore for cameron island...at home doing some last minute stuff.dont really feel like going out but thanks for inviting me anyway...gonna miss all of you..haiz.i hope pds goes well tomorow.guys..do your best k :) i believe in you to take care of our juniors...dont fight or quarrel while im away.wish u ALL THE BEST. feel like im going away forver...having bad thoughts but im trying to shut them out.i dont want this to be the last time here...i pray hard its not..choi3.touch wood.good thing my study table made of wood...im bringing my hw there but hope theres time to do.okey i need help..i dont know what to wrrite for the last info board.i was hoping all of you can share your experience on the camps,expedition etc.. cn?

i put the pds song inside my ZEN aledi.will listen on the way and remember all the drills and remember the cues also.so you all not the only ones semangat pds mah.i also got..im doing with you all but thousands of kilometres away thats all...haha. :D hmm...what else...oh yeah...save me some BARBEQUE FOOD!!! HAHA...i know its not possible.haha.just tell me how it went k. make sure dont overcook or under cook.haha.chefs beware.haha.

one last thing...
"you tell me not to worry for you? you think its possible? i just wanted one last night to talk to you seriously and just the two of us.but that cnt even happen. i feel disappointed...that must be why my mood not so good lah...got unfinished business or unfulfilled wish.haha.im talking nonsense.just ignore.okey...since you said that.i will try to do it...for you. dont want to go off all sad2 right...still got love from family and friends. i can survive one week without you.haha.did it before. okey then. buybuy! love you.miss you.muackz!"

IM GONNA MISS ALL MY FRIENDS :'( SYIMAH.WANI.ILA.IDAH.NISA.YANI...feat marsha.haha. for people i have not mentioned...dont worry.youre not forgotten...just that SWIRINY INFERNO WILL ALWAYS BURN IN MY HEART.haha cheyy...haha.so chim.okey lah okey lah.stop aledi.ltr start crying...haha. BYE-BYE! I LOVE YOU ALL! ill cum back with souvenirs k :) MUUACKZZ! haha.ive kissed you all. MUAHAHAHA!... :P WOOHOOOOOOOOOO!

MOVIE MARATHON

2009-12-26T20:35:00.002+08:00

MOVIE MARATHON AT NISA HS.G-FORCE AND ORPHAN
DINNER
NW GOTTA PACK MY BACK.
SHORT POST ONLY.
CHOW.

MURRAY CHRISTMAS!!! :D

2009-12-25T13:48:00.005+08:00

so today is christmas...MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYBODY! enjoy lah today...gt christmas dinners,presents,blessings n wishings...'tingly' :) ...speaking of christmas dinners...mi family is having one.no...we dont celebrate christmas...but it doesnt hurt to just have a big dinner with the family right? after all...it is a festive day :)meeting yani,syahidah,khalil,firdaus n mayb amira at imm ltr to survey the food n stuff for pds bbq. i wanted to help my mother prepare the dinner but then she said theres nth for me to do...so i on comp for awhile...pity my mother...she wake up early mrning to make this n where did my sister go? she disappeared to meet her friend when she suppose to help my mother also..my mother also didnt have a good breakfast coz the mee goreng is too hot for her...hear her stomach grumble where i bent down to take my drink.haha.i shared my breakfast with her.beehoon goreng..my favourite :D well thats all for this afternoon..buybuy

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met yani,khalil,syahidah and firdaus at 7-eleven.had fuN surveying the stuff.alot of nonsense.haha.ate at BAGUS nt banquet...my mistake...so sorri...then went to the 3rd level open air,sat down and calculate stuff bout the bbq...found out that the stuff totalled close to $500...tried and cut down...went daiso and surveyed summore...bought my shampoo at giant.it said there EXPRESS COUNTER,items below 10.cnt u read??...aniwae...firdaus say he will go SS and survey for stuff also...then all went separate ways...literally...reach home,bathe,help my mother prepare salad... had CHRISTMAS DINNER.YUMYUM! the turkey with stuffing damn nice.the salad needed sauce...potato taste like potato..gravy was delicious...my grandma bought xtra indian rojak...haha...like a feast.WOW..nt long b4 30mins...it went down the drain...get my drift? haha...then use comp, watched heart-breaking videos.so interesting...but i must stop coz i still must do my homework and do the info boards.planning to take the pics from ncc website...gtg nw.buybuy

THINGS TO DO:
-buy shampoo(DONE)
-try holiday homework
-try and complete ncc info boards(*need pics*)

NEW MOON

2009-12-24T23:15:00.003+08:00

so today i went out with soif to orchard.i was late.haha.sorry...went to shaw cineplex,waited in line for 10 mins to buy snacks then off we went into the theaters...

NEW MOON
honestly in my opinion,new moon is okey lah.i wouldnt say that its the best or the nicest show ever. theres only alot of half naked HOT guys...it was nice at some point when there was the rush of emotions flowing through you.the excitement,the sadness,the anger...you could feel it from them...tears rimmed at my eyes...my body tingled at the scene of bella and edward...haha..all in all, i give it 4/5 though. twilight was better bcoz it was the beginning and most of us didnt know what to expect.bt we shld actually know what to expect bcoz theres books published about twilight sequels.this only spoils the surprise but why do people still watch the movie? because they want to see it with their own eyes and not imagine it in their heads...i recommend buying the cd.you cld watch it whenever you want and wherever you want...but after watching that movie i have to say that jacob is HOTTT.better with short hair.

after the movie we walked around orchard for 1 hr.wanted to find arcade but dont know where it was.ate ice cream on the way. went back to ion to eat.gt free chicken.it was veriiiii nice..found out that soupspoon is not halal...if you dont know at first then its okey...luckily we didnt eat.then we searched for other places to eat and finally ate at kfc..this part i rmbr izzul...miss hym really much but seems like he doesnt even want to talk to me...after ate we went home.soif gt emergency at home..at the mrt he passed me something.a pendant wiif a flower tied around a green necklace...its reli nice. THANKS SOIF :)i went to meet my family at queensway.taxi zoommmm...car home.chnge.eat dinner at AIMAN cafe...its halal. went for ngaji. ke-da-bak ke-da-buk...home and comp...soif practically paid for everything which is so sweet of him :).thats all for now.chow

accomplishment for today: finally gave out all my souvenirs
fulfilled promise with soif
advanced a page further in ngaji
mend ties with DOGGY

25 dec: survey food for pds bbq
26 dec: out wif frenz
27 dec:pack back
28 dec-2 jan: GOOD-BYE SINGAPORE...

PDS

2009-12-23T22:41:00.004+08:00

so today had pds. i cried infrnt of everybody.only eye-witnesses know. i cried juz bcoz too stress with everything.nt bcoz of the incident juz nw.dont worry no ones at wrong here. bt i felt much better after the SM&RSM talk to me. i felt like i really want to cooperate with my fellow seniors and make things work.so we did.n we tried...to our best...im proud of them all...then keep practicing the whole thing with song..trying to catch the cues when to move.roughly okey..then gt rewarded with massage by our own friends...NICE. then maam ong giv CHOCOLATE.mmmm....yumyum.haha.then after that get early christmas gift. thanks to the people who made it :Dsome cntributed here n there...bt it was still nice...

after PDS went lepak awhile then went home...reach home,bathee,eat,watch tv...fell alseep for awhile woke up,watch tv...nw playing comp.went bloghopping,fb,check mail...msn.blogging...bla bla...im veri bored.was talking to nisa on the phone actually but halfway she disappeared.dont know where she go...mayb some people know...haha...mayyyyybeee...we were playing game then suddenly she keep quiet then she sae she dreaming..then cntinue playing then total silence from her...i gave up n juz hang up.aiyoo..eesh3 nisa...nisa...okey lah bored nw..want to go off. buybuy

JENG-JENG-JENG

2009-12-20T22:25:00.003+08:00

studied for 1 hr plus.managed to go through 1 maths ws. then nisa ajak me out. went out with nis.wanted to watch movie but too late.then in the end we bought snacks n lepak bawa blok..reach home,change,went 4 dinner at imm.secret recipe..vietnamese beef noodles.then went shopping.bought this n that.felt guilty for shopping when i already hav alot of clothes...while other ppl are in need...im a bad example...then cut hair...then went home.on the comp...chattin with I.Y n messaging soif...buybuy

CUN SAJA...

2009-12-20T12:13:00.002+08:00

so 2dae is another boring day for me.but its not as boring as yesterday coz at least today theres someone talking to me in the morning.havent seen this person for so long :) i miss him.i miss the times we went out together...i wonder if theres a chance to get that back...anyways, i had many wierd disturbing dreams today.its like n off n on thing...which is scary...like in a coma...finally woke up at 11 plus...n i feel rejuvenated.coz the on off dreamz made me think i slept for veryyyy long. currently chatting with soif :) OSO has facebook! haha. i pranked called many people yesterday.haha. called them then hang up.they call back i dont pick.then i call them back to tel them its a prank.haha.stupid right.haha.what to do. people with no life and who are very booooored.haha. aniways,my plans today is to study and do holiday homework and pack my books for 2010 :D anybody wan to join me for a study date?? haha :D thats all folks!:P

JUMP!

2009-12-19T22:21:00.003+08:00

okey,as you cn see i changed my blogskin again :D but i like it! gt song! haha. my favourite song!!! :D i dont wann change it animore.stress lah change2 blogskin.yes you can get stress doing this. aniwae...lets talk bout today...

today woke up at 1PM.haha...bathe,eat,lie down watch tv,play comp. then fetch my sis, fetch my mother.went 4 dinner.eat rib-I steak.reach home, used comp,fb n blog n msn. currently chattin wif I.S.N...basically today...was a boring day...nothing else to say but HOORAY! sorry...bored ah.okey buy!

MAKSIM MRVICA

2009-12-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

well,im okey now...everything seems fine now...dee asked me to change my blog so here it is...i kinda forgot wat i did the past few days..only remembered pds,westmall,sleep...its been tiring...im stress out too...ure not the only one...i found something that is new to me...i listen to it everyday bcoz its relaxes me n calms me n i like it alot...im amazed by it...the pianist MAKSIM MRVICA...2 of my favourites composed by him...FLIGHT OF THE BUMBLEBEE and HUNGARIAN RHAPSODY NO.2...go listen to it if u hav the chance...it may nt b ur type of music bt its something different from the rest...

today i went out wif nisa,syim,naq,dee n farid...moonki,leslie,paul tagged along.bt of no use or help watsoever...went to buy groceries for our class bbq tml :D im hungry aledi...cnt wait.today no ngaji so i went over to nisa house to play badminton...play until 930...went home,bathe,play happy aquarium,listen to maksim n replay...now blogging...waiting for my mummy to come home and waiting for him to message or sumthing...so i guess im done now...apologees to any if i was not in a good mood to u...wierd mood swings...haiz...k buy

confessions...

2009-12-04T18:29:00.003+08:00

u noe wat ive been doing for the past daes?? sulking. i gt so stressed one dae.i cried.it gt worser n worser as daes passed. im pissed.juz hate everything n everyone else.i freaking irritated n juz dun wan 2 b bothered. i will shout at u if u piss mi off.n i will scream at u if u start being a bitch or jerk. wats wrong wif me? well...i dunnoe.im juz having a reli reli bad dae n i dont noe when its goin to end...i dun smile easily animore.i dun laugh at stupid jokes.n i find relationships stupid n a joke.honestly...i dun feel any love 4 anithing animore...dun blame it on the guy...y nt blame it on the world...hw much i freaking hate the world right nw...nw im listening to all the old2 songs...nth cn cheer me up...u cn try...bt it wont last long...im juz freaking sick n tired of everything...juz dum bother mi animore...i wnt b posting animore.tis is the last until i dunnoe when.dun worry.mi phone is still available.im juz shutting miself frm cyber world...i cnt b bothered animore...FISH YOU!

the end of the world is near...

2009-12-01T19:57:00.002+08:00

went out with rozaiman today.we watched a movie at jp.nisa,ila,dee n yani went swimming.i heard it was reli fun.haha.sorri i couldnt cum....me n rozaiman watched 2012.its a veri nice movie...abit frightening when u think tat the worlds gonna end in 3 years time. so we reached jp,bought tickets,went to eat at kfc.rozaiman treat me cheese frie.yeah:D then go play arcade to kill time.watched the movie.after movie we went home.reached home,play comp,bath,play comp again.blogging...n nw i wan to eat coz hungry n past dinner time aledi.so buybuy...

i know wats my dream dress for prom...imagined it just now :D

BARBEQUE PDS

2009-12-01T00:01:00.002+08:00

so ytd i went for mi family bbq...at aloha loyang.east coast.n if u wan 2 hav chalet there,u muz been working high pay...coz it cost like $200...$400 per NIGHT...tats wat mi father sae...the barbeque was night of course...FREE FOOD! i had to b the chef..under the hot charcoal..perspire....nt so much. n then i veri stupid... i put mi phone in mi pocket.when i took it out,it was piping hot...cooked mi phone too...hw stupid m i...another thing tat happen was when i sat down...something veri hot at mi tummy...like burning pain.u noe wat it was?....mi metal belt.stupid right.i dun feel like sauna u noe...felt more like barbeque-ing myself...paIN...bt i dun tink i lost weight.gained more mayb...keep eating...mi auntie cream puff...THE BEST!!!SEEEDAAAAP...aniwae,mi auntie wans to open an on9 pastry shop...i kind of nid 2 help her do a blog...althought im nt veri good at it...bt i hope u all will help to support n buy sum of her pastries...went home quite late/tok 2 nisa otp until 2 plus...

2dae had pds...woke up juz on time...nasi lemak FREEE...NICE.thank yani:D tired frm pds trainig...nisa sae i became fickle-minded when i hit mi head on the bus roof...another stupid action of mine...mayb shes right...all i noe is im tired...slp...woke up..on comp...nw sleepy again...izzul callbt halfway talking suddenly peep' peep' peep' ....batt low...haha...tomorrow wanna go buy mi books coz 2dae forgot. it slipped my mind.was too engrosss with the nasi lemak n mi growling tummy...so tml muz wake up early...if he dun call back then i slp nw...if he call then i will slp ltr..bt no rush tml...on time own target carry on...haha..miss shooting.haha

MOVIE MARATHON-ING

2009-11-28T22:37:00.000+08:00

today i didt do much.went to nisa house.to do dancesteps for orientation.ended up havin a 2hour movie marathon.watch bride wars and beverly hills chihuahua.veri nice:)after that then we practice dance.did some research yada yada yada...dance abit..then it was time for me to go.my father came to fetch me then fetch my mother..went home,change,went to imm.eat dinner..shop2 abit.bought 2 new cds...proposal and land of the lost.gonna hav another movie marathon...coool...nisa wanna watch proposal with me?? haha.currently chatting with nisa and syim...and rizuan ATOK...long time never see or talk to him...good times we had... eh,wait..something caught myy attention...izzul on9??? :D u know i know that im happy.but muz not go crazy...like some peopl who are inseparable from their mataairs...tats all lah...im bored...still havent baked.wann baked...........

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI!

2009-11-27T16:36:00.005+08:00

so yesterday no ngaji. dee ajak me go jogging at bukit batok nature park but my mother dont let.she sae today the banglas get out.very dangerous.cannot cannot.( no offense) then dee ajak lepak at her house instead.then mi father say dun wan ah.dun nid ah.u stay at home help mummy cook for tomorrow sudah.n i was like...mummy coming back at 9 plus. want to cook wat??then he say nevermind.u stay at home better.late already.then tell dee bad news...oh yeah.ytd i did kacau syahidah.haha.she sae im rubbish.then i tell her"no...mi mother nv tell mi tat i was born in the trashbin" haha...she muz hav felt irritated...then at night he call...bla bla bla...then todae is HARI RAYA HAJI/AIDILADHA :D OH SELAMAT...HARI RAYA...HAJI...jeng3...hahaha...go my aunties place...reach there salam2.then did kitchen duty...help to cut fruits into tiny bits for custard tart.yumyum! talk2 with my cousin while doing so...she helped...then we plan when to go out...haha.then i sae to her..."yesterday learn how to cut apple...today learn how to cut peaches and strawberry...tomorrow cut kiwi ah...haha" full of nonsense i tell u...coz ytd reli mi grandma teach me to cut apple...MAMA STYLE.haha...then after everything.went home...reach home,chnge,watch tv 4 a long time...gt hungry...cook myojo maggi..n microwave some japanese crispy chicken...maggi..NICE!...chicken...CHOW TAR!...mi mother sae hard lyke rock...COOKING FAIL :( then i sae i wont giv up...so i try again...tis time...SUCCESS! :D note: eventhought the packaging say 10-15mins for microwave...its a LIE.i put 15mins...CHOW TAR...i put for 2mins30secs...JUST NICE :) im happy that today i succeded in quick&easy cooking...yeah! next time i want to try baking...COOKIES!haha...will learn from mistakes...now blogging...just finish feeding mi fish...listening to Sean kingston ft. Ben.E king-beautiful girl vs stand by me...take a listen.just click on the title on top...the one tat saes "SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI!".click2' so yeah i have nothing else to say so ill go...before i start my nonsense and you people get affected...muahaha:P

LAST NOTE: CONGRATS! mi cousin kak siti is getting married :D nikah on 1st jan.wedding...i dunnoe.haha...yeah!!!

BLUETOOTH LAH SEYY!

2009-11-26T17:39:00.002+08:00

amazingly,my bluetooth can reach further distances than 1km.wat am i talking about? rmbr in the last post i said im hoping he would call me...well...he did..haha.looks like my bluetooth cn reach until yishun...i wonder hw far tat is from jurong...

so today i met him.met him and farid.pass farid his sarawak pics.gt mi face.walao.stupid naq...y nv put ur face oso...haiya...then farid say he going home coz tired...then he say he want to walk...said byebye...then me n izzul went lepak...bawa blok..then went to eat at kedai kopi.hes full of nonsense today.mcm budak kecik tau.cute...bt irritating. then we went jogging...coz bored already...jog up and down stairs like idiots...haha.oh yeah forgot to mention...we wore same shirt...sarawak tshirt.kpo onli.i swear we nv plan together.coincidence...BLUETOOTH BLUETOOTH...haha.then tired after jogging...buy drink...drink alot...then sit down talk2.then he start his nonsense again.this time worst.singing like crazy idiot.people walk pass stare at us.malu aku...haha...dia pun paiseh ah...hu ask hym sing loud2...i did try to ask him to shut up a few times...bt to no avail.then i gt tired..dah ngantok...hes singing make me sleepy...then he ask me go home...so we did...bt before that bought drink again...then i reach home,bathe,use comp...he go meey his ayah...later i meeting dee n mayb nisa...mayb onli...go lepak bawa blok dee...tired..."yawn" ...currently chatting with rozaiman...rosalind...rozaiman...rosalind...rozaiman...haha...cool kn.haha.ooohh! syahidah on9.wanna try kacau her...haha.bored ah.haha.sorri syahidah :P

I MISS YOU :(

2009-11-25T22:36:00.002+08:00

today went to school with syimah.both our bluetooths were on today,haha,1km range.wow.haha...went to school coz khalil want to video syimah doing 19 drills.end up nobody in school...wait for senior amira,took ncc rm key with the help of mdm azizah. thank u :) went ncc room.lepak awhile.on songs loud2...haha.then syimah do drills.kecoh...haha...manly voice..hahaha...then senior amira had to go.left me n syimah in ncc room.we dance like idiots trying to find dance steps to fire burning.haha.then we went out,lock the door,look for mdm aziza,returm=n key then went to wait at foyer for expedition people...waited quite long.talk3.they came...yeeah!...i hear ila stories like soo nice.wish i cld hav gone...haha.bt nvm.cnt regret my decision.then that same thing happen again.i took the wrong bus home...took 187.ended up goin to ilas block there.haha.step cool but in my heart and mind...i was really fustrated with my stupid actions today.took 188...was wondering if it was correct bus coz scared already.reach home.phew...bathe,eat,watch tv...slp...zzz....disturbance at 6 or 7 + nisa kol.then dee kol...yani message...woke up finally at 845.eat...kol nisa.cnference wif ila n nisa...talk awhile...using comp now n oso chatting wif naq and rozaiman...well i dunnoe if ill b able to slp tonight...im hoping he will call me.miss hym...okey then.buybuy :)

OOHH...

2009-11-24T13:58:00.004+08:00

so 2dae woke at 1135...quite late.i thought i was goin to b late to meet hym bt i found he didnt go to soccer training...thanks to farid for telling me that...kte dua tk tau dier kat ane eh...haha.then i called his house..he was sleeping.oohhh...now i know. told him to go back to sleep then i went to bathe.bathe finish,ate...rice and fried chicken and prawn+vege dish.then watch tv awhile...CSI...haha:D then izzul call...talked for awhile...he say he going johor...follow his abang sedare...something like brothers cousin...i dunnoe ah...my malay not so good...haha.then say our last goodbyes...haha.like i wont b seeing him again.lols...then hang up.watch tv...dont forget to buy me souvenir okey?haha :D then using comp now.fb happy aquarium and now here blogging...my sis went out with her godbro and "baby"...meeting her later...shes going to treat me to swensens. YEAHHH!!! i love u kakak!...free! haha...im trying to save money so ill eat at home...or eat outside if someone treat me.cool right my strategy...haha. okey,my phonebill came tats why im trying to save...gonna try to message or call lesser on my handphone...so anybody wanna reach me? just message...then i call you using hs phone or you can just call my housephone...ill be at home most of the time.but dont prank call hor.haha...:) so okey lah...i wann do maths now.yes...i semangat belajar...because of the lecture miss chia gave ytd and besides i have nothing else to do.might as well study...okey then. see ya! buybuy!:D

so ya..met mi sis...went to swensens..wat i wear?jean shorts..long sleeve shirt inside ...polo outside.mi sis sae im crazy...yeahh..i m.haha.then eat swensens...ooohh.yumyum! eat chicken frank...after follow mi sis go shopping...buy bag buy jacket...then go starbucks...bought mi kopi-ol :D then went home...nice night for a stroll

mmm...

2009-11-23T17:18:00.003+08:00

I miss many people now...i miss all their nonsense...their jokes...their teasing all....miss talking to them and going out wif them...haha.good times... i am very bored now.nobody to talk to me.i feel like messaging my abang,mi primary skool fren...but i know they are busy with their own lives.tats wat everybody is doing right now. so okey ya...

just now went to school with izzul and farid...waste of time should i say? we went there to print pictures for sarawak project.well not me lah,bt izzul and farid.ended up getting lecture and warning from miss chia about studies...so in the end...i went home.farid went home or lepak or sumthing...izzul went lepak. bt no pictures.theyre going to try again tomorrow but i wnt b following...wanna sleep in...

im not in a mood today.early morning had a tiff wif izzul...okey let me shed some light here on the subject...according to your horoscope, u should focus more on being intellectual than letting your emotional side take over...dont start blaming me for what you couldnt do.n dont call me names like mental n stuff. you know i dont like it. Being intellectual means saying smart things n doing things smartly...for example,how about saying things to brighten the mood,not dampen it. and your comments are uneccesary....you are the only one laughing n we are like...whats so funny...its true...now i realise that when you say something unneccesary.. A:you just want attention. B:you want to act cool n tough,like you dont care bout all this(bt deep down i know you do. n C: youre juz a jerk...which i dont think you are...so dun act like one.
i have faith in you.i reli do.i trust you and i wanna help you.bt hw cn i help you if u cnt help urself...so think about it.im nt asking much...juz asking you to think smartly and wisely.i know you cn do it... as for trust...im loosing it...since that incident,mi trust is dissapearing for you.dont misunderstand...i still trust you.bt not as much as before...so forgive me if im veri suspicious n suddenly come at you with an accusation.please dont get mad,dont fight back n especially dont keep quiet...if ure quiet then ure guilty...just try to calm me down in a nice way...if you cn show me that...then ill also do the same for you...

wow.reli long post.so ya tis is wats been in mi mind lately.tats why whenever you talk to me,i just keep quiet and nod or shake or answer you "mmm..." i trying to give you a clue here...

2009-11-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

nw webcamming wif nisa.haha.nth 2 do...syahidah,ila n yani went 2 sarawak 4 expedition...nobody 2 joke2 wif.so mi n nisa veri bored...play reversi,play uno,play checkers,play tic tac toe,play backgammon...bt halfway stop coz boring...stayed at hme whole dae 2 dae...sleeping...i wonder wat his doin nw...mayb still slping...mayb watching hindustan movies...okey bored... i wann drink kopi-ol...haha.its between mi n nisa :P

Outing with nisa

2009-11-21T19:13:00.002+08:00

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Sorry I didn't post yesterday..
Hangover laa.

problems,Problems,PROBLEMS...

2009-11-17T20:55:00.002+08:00

okey.wow.blog...hello...havent seen u 4 awhile.been bz taking care of mi fish at fb HAPPY AQUARIUM :D

been bz wif ncc...theres also frenz..mi primary skool fren...juz sae everydae is anothe adventure...been so bz tat theres no time 4 mi abang..no time 4 hym..n no time 2 miself...xcept nw lah...

Im reli happy tat finally gt 2 eat wif mi family...lyke ya...
day 1-eat wif grandparents...
day 2-eat wif father...
day 3-eat wif sister...
day 4-eat wif mother n father...

is it a schedule?muz i book time n date wif u all?aiyo...u oso veri bz lyke mi i guess...too bz tat even if i cum back late...u dun care..coz y? u oso havent cum back hme...haiyo...all working hard..good2...bz ppl...juz hope sundae theres no program.no work,no skool,no ncc...coz if nt...tats the end of our family daez n daez 2 cum...

currently broke...seriously...no money aledi...mi papa givs money bt at one time i cn spend it all.
1)top-up card
2)eat
3)buy neccesities??

bt ya...its gone...poof!im scared 2 ask mi father 4 money coz i nv reli wan 2 bother hym in finance.he brings hme the bacon n has 2 pay the bills 4 mi family of 6 including.hp bill,elect.bill,water bill,gas bill...muz giv mi grandparents "pocket money"...giv mi mother "allowance"summore...dun 4 gt mi n mi sister oso...
nw hw 2 ask 2 pay 4 wali band cncert ticket cost $138...will he scold? i wonder...

another problem occuring...i cnt keep mi datelines...always overdue...soon the datelines wld bcum DEADLINES...haha...LAME...OKEYOKEY.muz seriously SERIOUSLY gt down 2 SERIOUS business..muz meet all these datelines...if nt im DEAD...so ya...i shld probably stop blogging n gt 2 work nw right? ya i tink i shld...okey.buybuy then .CHIN CHOW!

PAPA,MUMMY,KAKAK...

2009-11-11T20:29:00.002+08:00

U NOE WAT...I FEEL SO LONELY...EVERYDAY I CUM BACK N ONLI GT MI GRANDPARENTS...WHICH IS LYKE SO SAD.MI MOTHER FATHER N SISTER WORKING...SO ONLI MI N MI GRANDPARENTS EAT DINNER 2GETHER...n i feel lyke im juz living wif them ...omg.tis is bad... :(i cnt imagine life without mi mothers nagging...mi fathers cautions n mi sisters NONSENSE...it gets irritating sumtimes bt its wat makes u feel excitement in ur life...a sense of thrill,FUN, a sense of belonging...home..sad seyy...i hope they cum back soon.im waiting 4 them so cn eat dinner 2gether...so ya...im posting juz bcoz of tis...it suddenly came 2 mi...lyke balloon popping.POP!...lyke tat...then bubbles flowing...foam...the softness...bubbly feeling...okey...tokking nonsense nw...

m i too emotional? is it mi or is it juz sumone else? ...i cn help bt wonder...

2009-11-08T20:06:00.002+08:00

OKEY.WOW.RELI LONG TIME SINCE I POST...OBS MADE MI DARK...OMG.

FIRST THING FIRST...I MUZ APLOGIZE 2 SOIF.I STILL HAVENT GIVEN U UR SOUVENIER FRM SARAWAK.N NW URE NT MESSAGING MI MUCH N I NOE U NOE Y...U FOUND OUT SUMTHING ABOUT ME TAT I DIDNT EVEN TRY 2 MENTION N IM RELI SORRI 4 TAT...BT NO MATTER WAT URE STILL MI FREN:)

IVE BEEN HAVING BAd luck tis weekend...firtsly mi wallet gt stolen.PICKPOCK PICKPOCK.haha...its funny the way u sae it. aniwaes... ya gt PICK-POCK.haha.by sum person.stole mi cash n even coins n oso mi thumbdrive.was so in a mental state of shock.sadness.brokenheart...bt reli glad tat manage 2 gt it back. THANK VIDA SHOP SALES ASSISTANT!u dunnoe hw happy i was...excited lyke hell...yeah...money nt a big deal 2 mi lah so i dun care...at least the person is kind enough 2 leave mi ic n ez-link card...

LESSON LEARNT: dun wear ur backpack at the back when walking in crowded places.u nv noe wat might happen...

then 2dae argued wif hym over sumthing small bt bcame veri big...still heartbroken till nw...i nid sumone 2 tok 2 bt mi best fren having problems...n i dun tink nisa is interested 2 noe wats goin on between hym n mi...dun wan 2 gt the rest involved...onli person left is dee...bt im juz tired...i dun wan 2 bring it up...aniwaes...at least gt cheered up by mi frenz...tats wat frenz do best...so sad syahidah went 2 australia aledi...gonna miss her.actually thought of sending her off bt too late...haiz...it will b quiet arnd 4 the nxt few daes...

i nid 2 gt in mi studying mood soon.right nw im juz lazy,plain LA-ZEE...sarawak project havent do.maths havent do.geog havent do. aiyaya...when wan 2 do ??

will try kolling hym again.im reli worried he wnt eat.he might starve 2 death n he wnt get well if he cntinues lyke tis...

2009-10-31T20:06:00.002+08:00

its been a long time since i posted.was bz. wif examz n all tis activities...lazy 2 blog oso lah.haha.went 2 sarawak,KUCHING.damn fun! u shld go. gt all tis interesting places...WAHHHHH...okey.went wif hym lah..i tink we bonded alot mre during those 5 daes at sarawak...n tat trip reli opened mi mind further n deeper...

nth much 2 write...tats all 4 nw.goin obs on mondae.juz came back frm overseas n goin 4 camp nxt week...no mood.tired...

I LOVE YOU...

2009-10-20T22:37:00.001+08:00

everythings okey nw...im happy...im glaD...:)

i love you bi...

SAAT TERAKHIR....

2009-10-18T19:44:00.002+08:00

day 3 im sick...the fevr was bad in the mrning...bt i still went marketing wif mi papa.bought groceries n mi luggage bag...simply put.bought alot of stuff tat i needed n wanted...reach hme n put the groceries then zoom off 2 meet dee.met her at wm.do tis n tat.buy present 4 her bro n sis.collect cake...then we go back 2 her hs.mi fever subsided...wrap present...PARTY! was fun.ate nasi goreng,ayam... n best of all...FONDUE.OOOHH...YUM2...her sis bf was there.they so sweet 2gether.im jealous...then start 2 get boring.ate BANANA CHOCOLATE CAKE.keep eating chocolate nw tat exams r over.nth 2 stop mi.ltr bcum BIMBO coz chocolate kills ur braincells...haha.quote nisa...haha...then nisa kol.tok3...then went hme...eat again.playing comp nw...

2 soif:
thanks 4 caring 4 mi:) bt im okey...i was shock tat u read mi blog...haha.okey well,thx 4 being a fren all tis while

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y do u keep kolling?hav u found ur ans yet?i wanna noe.wats first priority in ur life nw.or did u juz 4gt bout wat i said n dun care.u tink im being emotional...u tink tat im juz being stupid...then tink again...im nt gonna giv u another chance tat easily...

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well,mi heart tells mi i shld 4giv u.i mean u do bring mi joy n laughter throughout mi whole 15 years.i juz didnt expect 2 find out tat way...okey,if u promise 2 chnge n stop wat ure doing then im willing 2 giv u a chnce...bt if u ever start ur habit again...then i will cnfrnt u face-2-face.coz i tink tat u reli hav a problem here.n its affcting mi n mi life...

BAD MAN

2009-10-17T19:57:00.003+08:00

HAV U EVER BEEN BETRAYED??IMAGINE HW I FEEL WHEN I FOUND TAT IT WAS TRUE.I THOUGHT TAT IT WLD NV HAPPEN.I TRUSTED U.I THOUGHT U WLD NV HURT.BT U BETRAYED MI TRUST.Y DID IT HAV 2 B HER OF ALL PPL??U WERENT SATISFIED ENOUGH WIF HU U WERE WIF???!! GROW UP.HW OLD R U.HW DARE U DO TIS.I DUN TINK I CLD EVER C U THE SAME AGAIN.IM ALEDI HURTING BCOZ OF THE PAIN FRM THE FEVER.BT U JUZ GIV MI A BIG HEADACHE.ITS HURTS MRE OKEY.WATS WRONG WIF U???OF ALL PPL I TRUSTED U THE MST.I LOVED U.BT U JUZ LOOKED INTO MI PRIVATE LIFE.SCARED OF WAT ILL SAE.I DUNNOE WAT 2 DO NW...HW CN I BELIEVE U ANIMRE.I DID WAT I DID COZ I WANTED U 2 STOP WAT U WERE DOIN.I NOE U HAVENT SEEN HER 4 A LONG TIME BT TAT WASNT NECESSARY OKEY!!!U ASS! I GUESS URE THE ONE HUS ACTING ALL GOOD INFRNT OF EVERYBODY...Y?? Y???Y MUZ U DO TIS 2 MI! I HATE U! Y MI FREN?Y!!!!!I HATE U SOO MUCH RIGHT NW.I DUNNOE HW I CLD EVER 4GIV U. I HOPE U NOE TAT IM AWARE OF WAT URE DOIN N I DUN LYKE IT!.STOP IT!JUZ STOP IT!

im afraid.
im scared.
i dunnoe wat else 2 do.
shld i avoid u??
bt hw cld i...
pls juz stop it...
im ASHAMED of IT.
hw cld i ever cnfrnt u>>???
tell me.
when shes nt arnd.u do tis.
wats the matter wif u.
wats wrong wif u!!!
stop it pls.i dun wan 2 hav 2 hurt u.PLEASE!

GIRLS ONLI

2009-10-17T13:21:00.004+08:00

ytd went out wif xiyu.damn fun.old frenz meet again after a long time...u 4gt about everything else u noe...wat was important was wat was happening right in frnt of u. miss her lots! so we took taxi 2 ikea...she pay...ikea full so we went 2 queensway...hmm...dee also went right.wonder if she saw me..hmm...then round3 cnnt find the shop tat she want 2 buy the shorts frm.we tink it closed down aledi.i walked everywhere in baju kurung.it was a hot dae...i perspired...finally gav up the search n went back 2 ikea.less ppl.walk2...we ate lunch...talk 4 long hrs...time fly by reli slowly...waiting 4 her bf 2 finish his outing wif his "girlfrenz". mi n xiyu plan tat since he lyke tat then xiyu is nt goin 2 talk 2 hym...juz ignore hym...then when the time came we made a move.2 the toilet...haha...then he kol mi.i seriously didnt noe tat the boys raya oso...he keep asking about hakin tis hakim tat n stuff...then we went 2 sit down awhile...went toilet again then took taxi.drop her off at queenstown mrt.then i zooom 2 hakim hs.carsick.reach hakim hs then saw tat the guys n girls all there.shocked...salam2 everybody...felt dizzy aledi...drank water,ate n watch cicakman 2.okey lah i admit...he handsome in black.bt didnt reli pay attention 2 hym.tv mre important.haha.i start having fever...then okey.then go lam hs then fever again.due 2 drinking coke...then go nash hs.they there again.karaoke-ing.fever gt worst.ate panadol.rested 4 awhile...thx mi frenz 4 caring 4 mi :) appreciate it.i love u guys! then went 2 mr fuad hs.i okey aledi.drink alot of coke n ate the goodies. HUNGRRRYYYY!:( THEN TOK2 WIF MR FUAD.nisa,syim,idah n yani go tour his hs...mi n ila n ika...tired i guess.dun wan 2 move...then we go syahidah hs...her hs is 2 storey.NICE.i ate alot i tink.hungry.poor syim.i dun tink she gt enough food..then went hme.take 188 wif nisa.watch tv.tok on the phone.sleep/zzz

2dae im goin out wif xiyu again.watch movie!:D been dying 2 watch movie bt everybody pokai.gtg nw...or ill b late.CHIN CHOW!:)

JALAN RAYA LAGIII!!:D

2009-10-16T11:25:00.002+08:00

okey so 2dae woke up early...bathe...playing comp nw.haha. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY XIYU!!!:D haha.tokking 2 u nw on the phone nw.haha.i shld get ready if wan 2 meet u at 1230.okeyokey..arghh...hungryyyyyyyy:( okey.short post onli.ltr oso go jln raya.WEEEE!...haha.c u ltr. CHOW BABY!:P

...today...

2009-10-15T21:54:00.003+08:00

OKEYOKEY. IM PROUD 2 SAE IM OFFICIALLY HAPPY WIF TIS BLOGSKIN.N NT GONNA CHNGE ANIMORE COZ LTR GT HEADACHE...EVERYTHINGS ALL RIGHT,ITS COOL.JUZ A MISUDERSTANDING.IF U DUN GT WAT I WROTE IN THE LAST POST THEN NVM...ITS NTH LAH...

WELL 2DAE HAD LAST PAPER. YEAHHHHHH!!!:D haha
DNT WAS QUITE OKEY ARE...SUM OF THE QUESTION R JUZ MIND-BOGGLING
HAHA.EH,TIS EXAM DIFFERENT LEH.TIS TIME GT NO ONE SCREAM WOOHOO! EXAMZ OVER.NT LYKE MID-YEAR I TINK.HAHA.KN BEST...
OKEY,AFTER PAPER ATE WIF DEE,ILA,NISA,SYIMAH,NAQ...
THEN THE CORE-LIT BZ READ BOOK...APE MAU BACE BUKU.HAHA...LOL
THEN TAKE PICS WIF JASRA PHONE.I DUN LYKE THE WAY I SMILE IN PICS.MAN...BT NVM...I DUN RELI CARE MUCH.
THEN THEY GO...THEY FLY.FLY WHERE? 2 HUM RM 2 TAKE LIT PAPER.I RELI DUN UNDERSTAND WAT CORE LIT N MLY LIT IS ABOUT.OF COURSE LAH..CORE GEOG STUDENT MAH...APE DEYY..
IDAH,YANI N IKA ARU SMPAI.THEN EVERYBODY GO.I WENT 4 SL BRIEFING.SUMTHING ABOUT HEALTHY PROGRAMME IN SKOOL.SHHHH...ITS A SURPRISE.HAHA
THEN SAW IKA N IDAH AT CANTEEN DATING.HMM...WENT 2 TOILET,CAME BACK OUT.IKA GONE...IDAH SAE IKA GO B GF 4 HER GUY...SO SHE LEFT ALONE...BT LUCKILY GT MI.HAHA'
WE TALK CRAP SIA.SERIOUSLY.BORED N TIRED.EVERYTHING FLY2.WE BOTH TRIED ASKING PPL IF CN GO THIER HS...BORED N TIRED.OMG.CN DIE.THEN IDAH START DRAWING MATURE-THEMES ONLI PICTURE.EH2...SO DIRTY MINDED.HAHA.LOL...COOL ART TECHNIQUE.CLD BCUM A TALENT ONE DAE.DRAWING those PICTURES.HAHA.THEN WENT MEET MAAM.SPENT LONG TIME THERE.GOIN IN N OUT OF CONVERSATION N KEEP CHNGING THE SUBJECT.HAHA.THEN WENT PASAR BIRU.TAKE NISA SHOELACE.ADE TK ORG BELI KASUT TKDE SHOELACE??... ADEEEE...NISA LAH...HAHA.FUNNY LAH SHE.HAHA.THEN GO LOT 1 EAT.YUM2...I ATE CHICKEN RICE!:D haha.IDAH DIDNT EAT.NO MONEY...THEN MI N NISA GO BACK SKOOL 4 BRIEFING SARAWAK...HE DIDNT CUM BCOZ SICK...
THEN WIF MI MOTHER GO WM N SHOP2...BUY THIS...BUY TAT...BUY THIS N TAT.MSTLY MI THINGS..BOUGHT NEW POLO N ACCESORIES.WENT HME.BATHE,EAT,BLOGGING N NW GOIN 2 SLP.

chin chow everybody! :)

the past is the past,lets leave it there...wad u sae?

2009-10-14T20:41:00.004+08:00

i deleted it...if the past hurts u than im sorry.bt theres nth i cn do. i guess mi anger juz gt 2 mi.ppl do stupid things when their angry...i wnt b surprise if tml i go 2 skool n hav no frenz...i hav nth tat cld prove tat i wasnt in the wrong.i admit.im guilty...bt pls noe...tat mi intentions were all good...bt i gt a little carried away wif the words...tats all.hope u understand.people do stupid things when they're full of emotions...

juz a few daes ago we had tat talk n nw another argument cums up....juz 4gt wat i wrote okey

misunderstanding

2009-10-14T20:15:00.003+08:00

okey,first thing first. i noe mi blog looked wierd right.sumthing was wrong wif the template. bt wat u sae...U MISUNDERSTOOD. tat post was before tat talk wif maam.mi blog had problems. if u dun believe,scroll down nw.c the date.

im sorry if reading tat post hurt u bt tat was the past.nw i dun hav anithing ,no mre hatred,no mre problems wif u.n nw u hurt mi back.

okey,im glad tat ure over I. i appreciate it bt u hav 2 understand tat tis isnt about the 3 of us animore.its nt about anithing. BT nw tat u wrote tat in ur blog.2DAE. wat m i suppose 2 do. i chnged tis blog 5 times 2 get the right skin so nth else would b mixed up n nobody would b misunderstood.

if u sae tat im acting nice infrnt of everybody so they would lyke mi.okey,i accept tat.i accept wat u sae. if tats hw u c mi,then im alright wif it.bt pls dun b angry wif mi bcoz of tis.pls dun start a fight again.i dun wan ani more of tis..
mayb i m juz being nice infrnt of ur eyes,i wnt noe...bt im juz tired okey.pls dun start animore...

watever u read,watever i said...IT WAS THE PAST...i nv meant 4 it 2 b opened up again.i should hav deleted tat post when i had the chance. pls pls.im beg of u.dun b lyke tis. it was a n accident.it was a mistake. it was MISUNDERSTANDING...nw i dunnoe hus mre hurt...2 mi,i guess we're equal nw...

if i hav 2 explain...okey,here it goes.tat post was when we fought.when all us were nt on good terms.i onli wrote tat bcoz i was soo angry wif u writing bout us in ur blog.i was sick of it.so i juz let out wat i felt.juz lyke u in ur blog.it wasnt mi way of embarassing u...i juz made a mistake okey.im sorry..i juz wanted 2 let u noe...wat i thought.if tml, u dun wan 2 tok or look at mi then its okey...ill leave u alne...i hope no one else misunderstoods...pls read the date correctly...

2009-10-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

frm good times 2 bad...frm better 2 worst...wats in ur head fly through ur mouth.then wats the point of havin a brain...wats the point of having emotions...when u cnt even feel wat uve done wrong...tink bout it carefully.tink deeply.tink wif ur heart.take a deep breath n tell mi wats wrong....

WHAT ARE FRENZ FOR...

if u nid a fren ill b there...
u gotta take note tat ill always care...
even if we fight
n things arent always right...
i still treat u as a fren..
n i will love u forever n then...

if u cry ill make a fool of miself juz 2 make u smile
ill tell u lame jokes juz 2 c u laugh...
n ill help u solve ur problems juz 2 c u happy...

to me...tats wat frenz are for...bt frenz cn do mre things then tat...its juz whether u realize it or nt...

if u have a problem wif a fren...it wnt feel right 2 leave it lyke tat.one of u has 2 giv in.the one at wrong shld b the one 2 apologize...if u dun realize wat u done wrong...then all ur ego stands in the way of friendship.TINK 2 URSLEF...do u reli deserve tis frenz...do u frenz deserve u...

im speaking frm the heart...hoping itll reach out 2 ani of u out there... if u dun lyke wat u thinking,
then think again...
if u dun lyke wat ure saying, then apologize...
if u dun lyke hw ure feeling,then find the littlest thing tat will make u happy..tats wat i always sae...

the one closest 2 ur heart... will affect u the mst

IM SO GOING TO SWENSENS :D

2009-10-04T20:16:00.006+08:00

okey helo again! DID U MISS MI? I NOE U DID.HAHAHA...if ila reads tis she will smack mi i tink.haha.teachers dae script.haha.okey i dun wan 2 tok bout syhaidah.shes so BORING! if im bored then i tink i will start again.she is the queen of DRAMA MAMA.HAHA.if i nid excitement then ill make trouble...omg.evil...stop it.stop it...

ALIEN ROSE............... <3<3>

well, 2dae i went out wif soif.haha.its been a long time since i saw hym.miss hym frm ADC...met hym at jurong..went 2 lib.study awhile...boring part...noisy ppl at the lib...heloo...its a LIBRARY.duh.i dunnoe wat 2 sae animore.then after study2...i gt mental block.then we went 2 imm.ate lunch at BAGUS...i ate kway teow goreng.malu ah eat in frnt of a GUY...haha...then after tat we went 2 sit at the playground there...tok3...about alot of things...veri fun.kept laughing...ALOT.haha.his smell remind of sumone...haha.exactly the same.haha...ya,tok alot.damn fun wif hym...haha...then we went SWENSENS!!!haha.eat ICE CREAM!!!haha.we ate regular EARTHQUAKE.damn cool the ice cream.gt dry ice effect.COOOL...HAHA.spend a long time eating ice cream n tokking.so romantic.haha.onli missing candles.haha...he gave mi a rose(sir haiqal teach us ADC)haha...aww so sweet...tats wat the lady at swensens said too...haha.after tat he went mi hs.stayed awhile n went hme...reli reli reli had fun 2dae.haha...okey i wan 2 go nw...CHIN CHOW! :D

THANKS SOIF :D.....................

OKEY

2009-09-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

okey ppl,i noe mi blog is lyke keep changing blogskin.
i told u im fickle-minded nwadays...n reli nt in a good mood oso...juz ask ila n nisa
they noe...bt i dun tend 2 show it to mi frenz coz it will ruin their dae oso
which is bad...if u wan 2 bad mood...5 minute aje...dun bad mood the whole dae until goin hme time...always try 2 part ways wif ur fren in a good mood k :)

2dae was okey...i start 2 feel the semangat blajar feeling cum...bt veri slowly.i tink gt mental block...had pe which was damn fun.haha. we play captains ball against the sec 5s...haha.ya,i tink i cn safely sae we were winning...haha...damn fun 2 play wif them...all full of jokes n veri lame2 stuff.haha...all crazy girls...i wore nisa's pe shorts size l which was abit too big...it kept falling during the game...haha...abang n his frenz were playing oso...bside our group...mardiah gt left out lah.poor thing.haha...ila saw abangs boxers..she sae its green...hmm...i said 2 her tats mi fav colour....eh2...all start dirty-mind aledi right...eee...eesh3.veri bad ppl...i wonder if naqs reading tis...hmm...

after tat had all the lessons...teachers keep doin revision revision revision...bt i tink we slacking abit...bt nvm...oooh3...i LOVE MR GOH! he so CUTE.haha...seriously..omg...haha.remind mi of ROLLIE POLLIE OLLIE...HAHA.make way for noddy...haha.had class interaction where we do our own work...i did physics n chem then went dozy doe...woken up by ms chia...then after skool i start bad mood...i tink wat i sae was right..mayb juz tired...n hungry...ate hor fun...felt better...then syahidah came...i felt mre better...she was in a bad mood...all the way..kept quiet...i cldnt care more bt oso cldnt care less...gt wat i mean? then went 2 find ms liza 4 consultation..she bz...tml then...caught up 2 nisa,ila,syimah n syahidah...heng...then we go hme 2gether...syahidah reli bad mood...i simply asked her a question nicely. i expected a yes or no ans.bt she gave mi one tat was exaggerated n unnecessary...neither a yes nor no...so i juz took it as a positive no...she was angry wif one of us...bt her ans was reli uncalled for...

reach hme n bath...do hw/revision...all the way message soif...hmm..haha.okey nw blogging...rest and relaxing...i tink i wan 2 go nw...wan 2 go toilet...okey lah.buybuy

JEMPUT DTG

2009-09-27T22:05:00.003+08:00

woke up at 10...bathe...go n draw up STUDYPLAN.

i tink i look n stared at the paper 4 10 mins..mi mind totally blank.

the study cells nt working yet...finally planned mi STUDY/REVISION PLAN.

satisfied wif it yo...then do all the hw while waiting 4 ppl 2 cum...

took a break,went shop 2 buy chili padi...mi mother cook mee soto...i helped 2 make the bergedil....NICEEE...juz ask the ppl hu came mi hs...its good man...reaal goood...haha.

cntinue 2 do hw...father make noise 2 help wif the cooking...wan 2 pound bergedil...ended up grinding it...faster n easier...whzzzzzzzz....tats the sound the blender makes...then roll into ball...flat2...then fry...mi mother did the frying. she complained sae mi bergedil all funny2 shape.sum small2 sum big2...haha.she makes mi laugh...i dunnoe y...lyke funny ah.haha...mi uncle n his family came...then they go...then i finish making the BERGEDIL..cntinued hw...mi hand smell lyke bergedil.had 2 wash it 3-4 times...woah.

managed 2 complete geog,chem n d&t hw...maths halfway...mly havent...ss oso havent...do ltr lah. said,reno,suhail,qamalrul n haziq came mi. paiseh infrnt of them.they all big2 size n all guys.im lyke so shooort n the onli girl.scared...bt had fun wif them.they make joke all...laugh2.happi2...then we watch f1...awhile ltr they went off...at the same time...amirah,baya,syaza,dini,syazwan n syamir aru sampai...they cum mi hs eat mee soto sit2 awhile then they go...after tat i relax...tired entertain ppl...eat mi mee soto/mmm...yumyum.haha....then nw blogging & messagin soif...sooo fun.haha...overall i cn sae one thing...everyone agrees tat mi mother chili kicap is pedas...bt mi bergedil veriiii NIce...u noe y?? u dunnoe? huh? tkkn tau...bcoz i make mah.hahahaha....paiseh2.semua kena.haha.ingat free per...hah.ni manual labour okey...tats all then. CHIN CHOW :p

raya raya

2009-09-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

2dae went out wif amirah in the mrning-afternoon.teman her buy present 4 her special sumone.haha.chat alot.send her hme.went back hme 2 gt ready go mi aunties house.mak ucu. i chnge lyke 1,2,3,4 or 5 times...juz cldnt decide wat 2 wear.finally i decided 2 go wif the green baju kurung.its nice n comfy.n its GREEEEEN! :D haha.wait 4 mummy 2 reach hme.watch OH BABY...go mi aunties house at toa payoh...eat3...watch repeat telecast of singapore idol.mi cousin haiqal keep staring at mi. mentah2 dier syazanye cousin juga.he tok bout mi 2 her oso...tk payah stare2.ade mulut boleh ckp.kte kn cousin.ape lahh...after tat we went 2 west coast 2 buy food coz mi sister hungry then we went hme.reach hme...shower,eat,watch tv...tok on the phone.plan wat 2 do tml. on the comp nw blogging.trying 2 decide wat 2 chnge mi blogskin.im veri fickle-minded these days...haiz...wat 2 do...wat 2 do...

1st daE OF RAYA...

2009-09-20T20:51:00.002+08:00

OKEY, WELL...2DAE WOKE UP AT 9...BATHE...CHNGE 2 OLD SET OF BAJU KURUNG..EAT BREAKFAST...SEND FOOD 2 NEIGHBOUR...GT CHNGE 2 NEW HARI RAYA CLOTHES...WATCH KALAR...NICE SHOW ON SENSASI...GO MI FATHERS BOSS HS FIRST...BLA BLA BLA...EAT...TOK2...WENT OFF...NXT GO MI UNCLES HS...LYKE WE CUM VERI EARLY.MI UNCLE NT EVEN HME YET...WAIT 5 MNS BLOW BLOK...PAK LONG FINALLY CAME...SO WENT IN...HELP 2 SET KUEH N FRY AYAM GORENG...ALL THE KERJA2 DAPUR I TOLONG...STEAL SUM OF THE KUEH.HAHAHA...THEN MI AUNTIES, UNCLES N COUSINS CUM...1ST OUT OF ALL:MI FAMILY...THEN MAMALAN. HAIQAL WEAR GREY...OMG. THEN ONE BY ONE START CUMING IN..LASTLY WAS MI FAVOURITE COUSIN...MAK NGAH N UNCLE HISHAM FAMILY...THEN EAT2 SUMMORE...TOK2... TOK BOUT MI COUSIN GT GF THEN GT CINCIN ON HIS HAND...SEMUA KECOH...HAHA...HANIS IHSAN KENA RABAK.HAHA...AFTER TAT ALL WENT HME...SEND PAK LANG FAMILY THEN HEADED 2 JURONG...I SLP IN THE CAR...THEN MI HEAD HIT EVERYWHERE...WINDOW...SEATBELT...THE CHAIR...PAIN...THEN REACH HME...SHOWER...EAT SUMMORE...WATCH TV: ROBOTS :)
NW HERE BLOGGING...FACEBOOK-ING...N LISTENING 2 GHOST RIDER SONG ON YOUTUBE...

BSOK KENA BNGN PAGI...GT LOTS OF HOUSES 2 GO TO...COLLECT DUIT RAYA BNYK2...MKN KUEH...LYKE LAST YEAR...SEMUA COUSINS CNQUER HABISKN SEMUA KUEH.SET. MAYB I MEETING NURUL,MI FAV COUSIN TML...N HAVING BREAKFAST WIF HER AT MAC...SO YA TATS BOUT IT...CNFIRM SEMUA PNAT KN?DAH JLN2...BBUAL BNYK...MOUTH MOVE UP N DOWN...APE LAGI...GI TIDUR LAH.HAHA...THERES ONE THING I REALIZED I 4GT 2 DO TIS RAYA...TK MAIN SPARKLES MLM2 BUTA :( ...
OKEY.BUY! 2DAE I WORE RED SO TML I GONNA WEAR LIGHT BLUE... CHIN CHOW!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!

2009-09-20T00:01:00.002+08:00

WELL OKEY.2DAE IS HARI RAYA EVE. SO IN THE MRNING MET YANI THEN WE GO 4 IMT SHOOT...WE FOUND OUT TAT PART AS ACTUALLY NID 2 CUM. MAAM WAS SO ANGRY...SHES GONNA SCOLD MR AIDIL WHEN SKOOL REOPEN...YA BT I TINK IT HAPPEN 4 A REASON COZ THERE WAS STILL NT ENOUGH TIME 4 THE 17 BOYS & 6 GIRLS TAT WENT 2 SHOOT.IMAGINE IF THERES MRE...LYKE 40 OVER...MAMPUS...STUCK SANE BERJAM2..

AFTER TAT, WENT WM...WENT HME...USE COMP...CLEAN HS...RELAX...SLP...TIRED

I CHAT WIF SOIF ON FACEBOOK. I MISS TAT HYM FRM ADC. MI SO-CALLED 'ABANG' n im his sister...haha. good times...hes caring n sweet...mi n ila always tok bout hym...so ya i chatted wif hym...we tok2...then i took down his hp number...then i went off.muz do cleaning aledi...THEN SLP

after SLP...I WAS AWOKEN COZ NID 2 EAT...SO TIRED...EAT LEMANG & RENDANG & AYAM GORENG...MMM...AYAAAMM... NW IM BLOGGING ON THE NEW COMP...ITS SO NEW..THE SCREEN SO BIG...AFTER I USE TIS COMP 4 2-3 HRS STRAIGHT...I LOOK AT MI HANDPHONE LYKE VERI TINY...SO WIERD...

WE WENT 2 IMM N BOUGHT ALOT OF STUFF...4 OUR ROOM...N I BOUGHT MI KASUT RAYA. HIGH HEELS! HIGH HEELS!...WALK3 PAIN!...THEN WENT 2 MAC 4 SUPPER.SAW TERENJIT.REACH HME..KEMAS RUMAH LAGI. ON COMP...BLOGGING...IM LOVE WIF THE SONG "GHOST RIDER IN THE SKY"...YIPEE AYE YEAAHHH...YIPEE AYE YOOO

KEPADA SEMUA KWN SAYA(EVERYONE TAT NOES MI): THX 4 ALL THE WISHES.SORRI AKU TK BALAS BALIK...I HAV SUMTHING OTHER IN MI MIND...I JUZ WANNA LET U NOE TAT AKU DAH LAME MAAF2KN KORG SEMUE...AKU PUN NK MINTA MAAF.WALAUPUN KTE DAH BNYK BENDE TERJADI, ITS STILL TAT FRIEDNSHIP TAT KEEPS US 2GETHER...LOVE YOU ALL ALOT! IM HAPPY 2 B WIF ALL OF U COZ U ALL MADE A GREAT IMPACT IN MI LIFE N MI HEART :) SELAMAY HARI RAYA!

2009-09-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

Understanding Depression
Signs, Symptoms, Causes and Help

Feeling down from time to time is a normal part of life. But when emptiness and despair take hold and won't go away, it may be depression. More than just the temporary "blues," the lows of depression make it tough to function and enjoy life like you once did. Hobbies and friends don’t interest you like they used to; you’re exhausted all the time; and just getting through the day can be overwhelming. When you’re depressed, things may feel hopeless, but with help and support you can get better. But first, you need to understand depression. Learning about depression — including its signs, symptoms, causes, and treatment — is the first step to overcoming the problem.
In This Article:
What is depression?
Signs and symptoms
Depression and suicide
The faces of depression
Types of depression
Causes and risk factors
Roads to depression recovery
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What is depression?
We all go through ups and downs in our mood. Sadness is a normal reaction to life’s struggles, setbacks, and disappointments. Many people use the word “depression” to explain these kinds of feelings, but clinical depression is much more than just sadness. Some people describe depression as “living in a black hole” or having a feeling of impending doom. However, some depressed people don't feel sad at all — instead, they feel lifeless, empty, and apathetic.
Whatever the symptoms, depression is different from normal sadness in that it engulfs your day-to-day life, interfering with your ability to work, study, eat, sleep, and have fun. The feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and worthlessness are intense and unrelenting, with little, if any, relief.
Are you clinically depressed?
If you identify with several of the following signs and symptoms, and they just won’t go away, you may be suffering from clinical depression.
you can’t sleep or you sleep too much
you can’t concentrate or find that previously easy tasks are now difficult
you feel hopeless and helpless
you can’t control your negative thoughts, no matter how much you try
you have lost your appetite or you can’t stop eating
you are much more irritable and short-tempered than usual
you have thoughts that life is not worth living (Seek help immediately if this is the case)
Signs and symptoms of depression
Depression varies from person to person, but there are some common signs and symptoms. It’s important to remember that these symptoms can be part of life’s normal lows. But the more symptoms you have, the stronger they are, and the longer they’ve lasted — the more likely it is that you’re dealing with depression. When these symptoms are overwhelming and disabling, that's when it's time to seek help.
Common signs and symptoms of depression
Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness. A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.
Loss of interest in daily activities. No interest in or ability to enjoy former hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex.
Appetite or weight changes. Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change of more than 5% of body weight in a month.
Sleep changes. Either insomnia, especially waking in the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).
Psychomotor agitation or retardation. Either feeling “keyed up” and restless or sluggish and physically slowed down.
Loss of energy. Feeling fatigued and physically drained. Even small tasks are exhausting or take longer.
Self-loathing. Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. Harsh criticism of perceived faults and mistakes.
Concentration problems. Trouble focusing, making decisions, or remembering things.

Depression Signs and Symptoms

Clinical depression is distinguished from situational depression by length and severity

Feelings of helplessness and hopelessness
A bleak outlook—nothing will ever get better
and there’s nothing you can do to improve your situation.

Loss of interest in dailly activities
No interest in or ability to enjoy former
hobbies, pastimes, social activities, or sex.

Appetite or weight changes
Significant weight loss or weight gain—a change
of more than 5% of body weight in a month.

Sleep changes
Either insomnia, especially waking in
the early hours of the morning, or oversleeping (also known as hypersomnia).

Psychomotor agitation or retardation
Either feeling “keyed up” and restless or sluggish
and physically slowed down.

Loss of energy
Feeling fatigued and physically drained.
Even small tasks are exhausting or take longer.

Self-loathing
Strong feelings of worthlessness or guilt. Harsh
criticism of perceived faults and mistakes.

Concentration problems
Trouble focusing, making decisions, or
remembering things.

-->Depression in men
Depression is a loaded word in our culture. Many associate it, however wrongly, with
a sign of weakness and excessive emotion. This is especially true with men. Depressed
men are less likely than women to acknowledge feelings of self-loathing and hopelessness.
How is depression expressed in men? Frequently, it comes out in more “socially
acceptable” forms. Anger, aggression, reckless behavior and violence, along with
substance abuse, can be signs of an underlying depression. You might hear complaints
about fatigue, irritability, sleep problems, and loss of interest or sudden excessive
interest in work and hobbies. Even though depression rates for women are twice as high
as those in men, men are a higher suicide risk, especially older men.-->
Depression and suicide
Depression is a major risk factor for suicide. The deep despair and hopelessness that goes along with depression can make suicide feel like the only way to escape the pain.
Thoughts of death or suicide: A serious symptom of depression
A suicidal person may not ask for help, but that doesn't mean that help isn't wanted. Most people who are suicidal don't want to die — they just want to stop hurting. Take any suicidal talk or behavior seriously. It's not just a warning sign that the person is thinking about suicide: it's a cry for help.If you think a friend or family member is considering suicide, you might be afraid to bring up the subject. But talking openly about suicidal thoughts and feelings can save a life. Speak up if you're concerned and seek professional help immediately! Suicide prevention starts with recognizing the warning signs and taking action.

WOAH.

2009-09-18T22:10:00.002+08:00

omg.iM so bored. lyke i read ppls blog...ZZZZZZzzzz...always the same thing.mesti tau hari2 ade drama mama...wth.arent u sick of it? y cnt u juz talk face2face...wait ah..

if u sae its bcoz sumtimes lyke we dun listen or cnnt accept...pls lah...bla bla bla...crap.a bunch of crap.hav u ever thought bout reflecting on urself b4 pointing out others??

y do u tink ppl dun wan 2 listen or cnt accept...mayb sum ppl r juz lyke tat. or mayb its juz tat they feel tat the person tokking 2 them is no better n has no right watsoever...

i dunnoe wats wrong wif mi ah. i juz gt sick.i dun feel well. i feel lyke throwing up on ur face n punching it everytime u do tat stupid irritating face.it gets 2 mi..i juz wanna whack it 2 hell...hahaha.
okeyokey...ppl hu reading mi blog right...gt a life man...omg...dun make urself hurt by reading other ppl feelings tat they let out. dun gt influenced. tis is called SOCIAL PSYCHOLOGY man! its bogus...half the time u cnt even tell if its the TRUTH or juz plain LIES...
crap...crap...crap...crap...

2 SYAHIDAH: tats right i said. clear n loud.coz if i keep it ani longer. ure gonna find out aniwae duh! im still goin tell u sooner or ltr....bt since i still hav tat cncsious in mi mind.unlike sum ppl...im nt gonna embarass u on the internet...tat would a form of CYBER BULLYING...am i right?

aniwae...tink bout it. SEEK FIRST TO UNDERSTAND BEFORE BEING UNDERSTOOD. have u learnt nth??...if u wan tat guy soo badly...ure pushing away another guy hu reli likes or even loves u 4 hu u r.ure hurting hym/ arent u making the same mistake. hw many guys do u wanna hurt? hw many frenz do u wanna loose if u keep tokking bout them on ur blog?? cn u answer mi tat. ive been veri patient wif u. ppl hav asked mi b4 hw i cn stand it...the answer is simple....TRY PUTTING URSELF IN TAT PERSON'S SHOES....WAHHH...seriously...sumbody gonna gt hurt reaaal baad...

the guy tat ure chasing is a sir...a sir in ncc...ure a cadet in ncc...if he ignores u...wats the reason?/if u reli wanna noe.ill tell u....sirs took an OATH.u noe wat an OATH is? a promise,a vow...cadet-officer relationships are discouraged...bt i nv said it cld nt happen...ure fretting over sumthing u cnt hav bt want sooo much...OOOH BOY...hw hurt the other person muz b...

mayb one dae ill tell u all the things u done wrong n u cn tell mi all the things tat i done wrong...will tat solve ur dilemma? n then u cn go n solve ur other problems tat r occuring. u may or may nt notice them...bt theyre happening aniwae...

when skool reopens, we'll juz c wat mi mood is lyke then...i reli feel lyke letting out EVERYTHING I HATE BOUT U...bt i noe.u gt feelings too...so ill b patient a little longer n c when the time is right...

Army Open House- AOH

2009-09-05T13:30:00.004+08:00

so ytd...we went to AOH!!!so fun! haha.gt many cool things there.i recommend ta u reli go check it out. its SO COOL!!!haha...cn gt alot of souveniers...learn new stuff...take cool rides...play games n plus GT NS MEN OKEY.haha...theyre all veri nice wan...haha.cute ppl..so yeah...we wen there...by bus...must belok2 here n there.haha.we joke2 wif the bus uncle...finally reach...no ambassador...then mi n yani run here n there while the 'little childrens' waited at one spot.then syahidah n narahj fight...okey...bad...then okey aledi...bt syahidah all the way bad mood...spoil onli ah narahj...so yeah..it was so fun.first we go OUR WORLD.gt all the cool exhibits...i keep saying expedition when its exhibition.c mi problem here...haiyo..then ya...alot of stuff lah.muz reli go u ppl!!SO COOL...i repeat...SO COOL...then we take picture...mi,nisa,ila,yani,syimah n kart...syahidah didnt take wif us.she went out first...i was crazy man i tell u. everything nice so i take...why? FREE! haha.u dunnoe tis bt there was a space in the pic tat was left 4 sumone...bt she wasnt wif us so nvm...nxt we went 2 COMBAT WORLD. gt all the tank n artillery n stuff..fun lah.mi,nisa n ila...haha.i pull them go in here n there.haha...while syahidah,yani n kart go their own n syimah was all the way wif maam...she caryy maam brg2...then we gather in the tentage area...sit in circle...speak chinese...lol...then we met the rest n headed hme lah...its over...didnt c much didnt c everything n nv even c a show 2gether :(...

so 2dae the 5 of them at SENIOR SPEC COURSE...good luck n hav fun SYAHIDAH,SYIMAH,SYAZWANI,KHAIRUNNISA N SHARMILA...ALL THE BEST! BRING HOME THOSE SHOELACES YO!...

mi n yani didnt go ambassador...too tired 2 wake up...finally woke up at 1130...bathe...read mi book...tok 2 hym...fight wif hym...stupid idiot...cntinue reading mi book. then nw blogging..n veri soon gonna meet yani n go AOH again!!! SO FUNNN!.haha.hopefully tis time we cn c mst if nt all of it n even catch a show.so ya...i better go chnge nw...haha.btw...nisa PC 4 senior spec is tan syahiid. i noe tat guy.haha...well...CHIN CHOW

3 daes straight...

2009-09-03T21:28:00.003+08:00

so...on TUESDAY teachers dae,the actual one...it was a HOLIDAE...WAHH.wake up n gt dress...goin je lib wif nisa,dee n ika...i ajak the rest bt they didnt sae if they goin or nt so yeah...then wait 4 nisa cum mi hs...loong...then she finally reached bt stop wrong stop.then we go lib met dee n ika...so they both read book,i semangat do hw n nisa use comp...then dee n ika went hme left mi n nisa.ckp aje nk lepak end up alik dulu...nxt time k...oh yeah...otw way there me n nisa tokking bout ADIB...then i was saying u tink ADIB cuming...it came out as u tink AODIB cuming...WATS WRONG IF ME??muz i add an O in every word..first CONFI-DONT nw AODIB...haiyo...we met shayidah banu at lib...she telling us about a bangla following her.haha.omg.he follow her in the lib oso.woah.scary...haha...4gt 2 ask her if he handsome or nt...haha...reach hme bathe buka...then gt ready 4 wednesday...

On WEDNESDAY, gt skool...lyke normal...finish skool early coz gt NCC ambassador thing...met yani...met andy,sal n rudy....then met bus uncle n security guard...board bus...mr aidil giv boys money 2 take taxi hme while girls go on their own...independent. then off we went...reach there waited damn long...finally got kolled...went 2 cnteen there...they brief us...end up mi n yani all bcum photographers for AOH...bt t least gt the cool fan...then wait summmore...wait wait wait n wait n wait...waiting 4 them 2 giv our phones...wait 4 them 2 dismiss us..wan 2 sleep.so tired...restless...finally let us go...went 2 take phones bt nv giv back..then they kol us BACK..2 mph. yani gt fed up aledi n started scolding...i gt scared of her bt i held mi cool.i was laughing n making fun of the person in front...then finaaly cn go hme...lyke 6 sumthing!!...almost time 2 buka...so yani went hme wif daddy...then left mi,andy,rudy n sal...all taking taxi bt i take on mi own...they let mi hav the taxi...so sweet...boys who are bad cn b veri kind too...if they hav the chance...then reach hme...juz nice gt 20 mins 2 freshen up..buka...then nid 2 send mi mother 2 airport...she goin india...2 help the kids there...wow. then left mi,papa n kakak...go coffee bean n buy sum snacks...we didnt buy mi shampoo:( reach hme it was aledi 11plus...so damn tired...couldnt do hw so pack back onli n knock out...

haha.SO todae didnt go skool..cnnt wake up bt still message nisa n stuff...mi father still sent her...then woke up lyke 1 plus...relax2...dee kolled...she muz miss mi.haha...i noe nisa did...then bathe,gt dressed...go wm...bought mi shampoo...n many other stuff...while waiting 4 nisa...wan 2 collect hw...quite long ah...go lib borrowed books..wait n read...started 2 pour...shiok...i love the rain...then finally met nisa....go mr bean buy CHIN CHOW:D i love chin chow...father fetch.reach hme...chnge..buka...watch tv.kol nisa...pack back tml 4 ncc. oh yeah RAG!...ltr i pack...he kol mi...toktoktok...hang up.cntinue blogging...tml gt AOH...finish quite late...buka out..aniwaes mi father having company dinner so mi n mi sis hav 2 survive on our own..wan 2 buka wif her bt c hw first end wat time...okey...go n slp...buybuy. CHOW'!

ITS ALL GOOOOD...

2009-08-31T22:02:00.004+08:00

okey.let mi ask u this...hw cn u trust when there isn trust 2 begin with...hwcn u trust wat ur frenz sae bt cnt help bt wonder tat theyre doin this only 2 make u hate tat person more...simple ans...y nt go find out both sides of the story...then u decide the truth...dun ever b biased...dun ever accuse anyone of being wrong bcoz its either all wrong or none of them at wrong...quote"u cnt start the fire without the flame" psychology...influencing the way ppl tink...tats wat everyone is doin...

aniwae... 2dae had our TDE concert...omg.so paiseh 2 b games emcees...in front of the entire skool i go n confi-DENT as confi-DONT...n everyone laugh at mi...so wat 2 do...i laugh oso...make ppl tink its intentional...part of the script ah.haha...sa all the ex-yussofians...saw DINESH.long time nv c hym.he keep smiling all the way.make mi paiseh...okey...the cncert was a blast i wld sae...i enjoyed it frm backstage...for the games...okeylah...ppl r reli more supportive than u tink especially when sabo-ing teachers...wahh...everybody pumped up.haha...then i go n stumble n sae diyanah frm 2e2...2e3..3e2...then finally gt it correct 3e3...haiyoyoyo...bt overall i tink it was okey...no mic problems,no slide problems...so yeah...in mi opinion..it was a SUCCESS! EUREKA!!!hahaha

someone didnt cum 2dae...luckily.if nt paiseh in front of hym...he go visit primary skool...i didnt.i hate mi primary skool.all the old2 classmates...step ahlians n ahboys...bodoh...org tu enjoy ngan kn lame dier...lepak2.............after the cncert we all went hme...i bathe change sleep....shioke seyy tidur...mimpi psl zombie...ke bangla lagi.eh2 haha...no lah..nv dream...woke up nk kluar untk buka wif ila,idah,nisa n yani...at jp...yani reach then mi...then we both sit down wait 4 them....piak! birdshit drop on mi hand.digusting man...yani ah attract all the birds...then she run away frm them...after meet them then go toilet.wash the birdshit wif the soap2...strawberry -smelling soap.haha.ya then walk2 arnd...go find place 2 buka..kena halau...finally sit at kfc...watch videos on nisa ipod...buka...mi,nisa,idah n ila et mcspicy upsize,yani eat cheesburger..then after tat go zone x play drum2...then go mr bean. I LOVE CHIN CHOW!HAHA...then go hme...here blogging lah..n nw i wan 2 go...ooo..ooo...wait.i gt sumthing 2 sae...danial shafiq n khidir smell veri nice...im nt weird okey.its juz tat they stand near then cn smell...cn faint i tell u...haha...i wonder wat cologne they use...hmm...okey...gtg nw...chow. CHIN CHOW!

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(ROZAIMAN,SHARMILA,NISA,RUSH,SYAHIDAH,SYIMAH,ROS,DANIAL SHAFIQ,HAIKAL,HAIQAL,KHIDIR,SHAFIEE,AMIRUL)

I RELI HAD FUN WITH U GUYS...EVENTHOUGHT THE PROBLEMS HERE N THERE,MANY2 REHEARSAL,WE STILL PUT UP A GREAT PERFORMENCE.LETS DO IT AGAIN SUMTIME OKEY!HAHA...OOH YEAH ALMOST FORGT THE KOREAN GIRLS...THEY SEXY AS CN B,SEXY FOREVER LAH.HAHA... GOOD JOB EVERYBODY.THATS A RAP.